The Corners Of War

Have you ever gotten that feeling?
The inside of your stomach heaves
And your heartbeat wracks you with pain
Your breathing is labored
Those eyelids drop in defeat
And your body shuts down

It's the corners of war
Your fantasies against your reality
Tearing apart your insides
Because you're so lost to what is and isn't
After all, you can't see the end of the road
And the path is twisted

You've seen this happen
When you over-think it and ruin yourself
Because you're too insecure
Perfection is never attainable
And you're the farthest thing from it

Gracious acceptance of the past
And blissfully optimistic for the future
It brings tears to your eyes
Running mascara betraying you
Your strengths are your weaknesses
They bring your demise

Your body is turmoil
And your mind is even worse off
Landmines fill that barren landscape
Any chance of happiness is ruined by them
Those mines are your scenarios
Of what is, what was, and what will be
And they will destroy you

God, why won't you listen to me?
I'm trying to save you from yourself
Because this is how it always happens
You'd think you'd have learned this by now
But no, you won't

You think this is foolproof
What could ever go wrong?
And a minute later, you're wrought with pain
From something that hasn't happened yet
You can see it, you can feel it
But it doesn't exist
How can you do this to yourself?

This is war, damn it
And you're always going to lose
Until you stop sending your secrets
To the enemy