I Deserve It

You deserve to be shot

I get it
I'm a bitch
I can accept that
But no way in hell
Do I deserve to be shot

Or do I?

Am I really that bad of a person?
Am I really that inconsiderate?

You say you're like me
Lies
You say you're a cutter
Then why do my words offend?

I'm not an idiot
I know what game you're playing
And trust me, you're fighting the fire
I can play this five million times better
I know my way around the block

I'm not a druggie, like you
I'm not a slut, like you
I'm not an idiot, like you

Don't you dare judge me
You don't fucking know me
I'm not what you first see
There's a different side of
This story

And I sure as hell could
Read it to you before your
Bedtime, little girl.

[/rant]

Best Friends Forever

What a lie
What a stupid cliche
I need to stop being stupid

You're never going to be
Her number one
You rank farther down than
The rest of her friends

Stop this madness
Stop being an idiot

The voices scream to me
I hide from them, yelling
"No, no, not her! She
Won't leave me now!"

But in the end, the voices win.
I'm losing her.
I know I am.
It hurts.

I have no one else.
I don't know what to do.

I'm losing everyone.
Even the people I thought
Were my best friends.

What a lie.
What a stupid cliche.
You'll never be good enough.

Gah.

I'm sick of it ending
Like this
It hurts
I cry
Why can't they help?
I hate the pain
I hate the sores
Oh, it kills
I hate this

[/LOVE]

Stupid Girl: A Self-Portrait

Get shrugged off one more time
Tell the world you'll be fine
When he breaks your heart
Can't find the strength to restart

Stupid girl
Wipe your eyes
It's your fault
You believe his lies
Oh, it hurts
But you're so naive
Run back to him
'Cuz you believe
Stupid girl
Don't believe in love

Let him break you one more time
Tell your friends you'll be fine
All he does is hurt you
But you believe the lies are true

Stupid girl
Wipe your eyes
It's your fault
You believed his lies
Oh, it hurts
But you're so naive
Run back to him
'Cuz you believe
Stupid girl
Don't believe in love

Estrella

Flow forth from the heavens
Oh, tears of sorrow
Drop from the sky
And caress the lonely

Drown all the dreams
Oh, tears of sorrow
Fall to the earth
And sustain the need

Can't stop this feeling
Can't stop this needing
Oh, no
Can't stop this feeling
Can't stop the needing

Watch as the Angel of Death
Falls from grace
A blood-red river flows at a
Daring pace
Hope's pale cream nails leave
The scars on her face
Give her a reason for running
This race

Flow forth from the heavens
Oh, tears of sorrow
Drop from the sky
And caress the lonely

Can't stop this feeling
Can't stop this needing

Watch as the Angel of Death
Falls from grace
A blood-red river flows at a
Daring pace
Hope's pale cream nails leave
The scars on her face
Give her a reason for running
This race

zzZZZ

It's a snowfall
Fading into the eart
Dropping a star from
The heavens
Holding a crystal in
Her hands
It's falling
Leaving us after we're
Graced with
It's presence
Don't leave me
Don't leave me

Stop It, Baby

Stop it, baby
You can't take this hurt
Anymore
You know he's all you want
You know he's what you need
But don't go there
Don't do it
He's not worth the tears

Stop it, baby
Your heart can't handle this
Pain
I know you love him
I know he's what your heart craves
But don't go there
Don't do this
He's not worth your heartache

Stop it, baby
Your heart can't deal with these
Sores
Everyone knows you need him
We know your music's for him
But don't go there
Don't do it
He's not worth your love

Tell Me You'll Save Me

I'll reach down and pull you
Up from the flames
Swim out to sea and keep
You from drowning
But can anyone save me?

I swear, I'm lost
I swear, I can't find light
I swear, these smiles just
Prevent the questions

I'd take bullet after bullet
For the rest of the world
I'll let anyone hold my
Head under water
But would anyone try to save me?

I swear, I'm lonely
I swear, it's dark outside
I swear, the smiles are part
Of my feigned happiness

Can anyone save me?

Stop Failing

The world fell from my feet
And left me hanging
Stop it, stupid girl
You can't do anything right
Give up
The world screams it at you
You're not worth even the
Tears you cry
You're never going to
Be good enough for
Anyone
Stop trying, stupid girl
The world can't wait to
See you fall

April Showers

You said things would be better

But they're not

You said I'd be okay

But I'm not

You told me you loved me

But you don't

You said it'd be alright

But it's not



And when things come tumbling down

The only part that can't be taken

Is the barren, blackened ground

And if I'm not mistaken



Even it comes from beneath our feet

I'll put on a smile and follow life's beat

'Cuz fighting isn't worth it anymore

Sometimes things just can't get better

You're standing in rain but you can get wetter

It's not gonna change a thing

I just gotta wait 'til spring



You asked if I was okay

But I'm not

I told you I was fine

But I lied

You told me there was

No one better

I scoffed at that and

Pleaded for truth



And when you're seeming beat

The only thing that can prevail

Is the earth beneath our feet

But sometimes it'll fail



Even it comes from beneath our feet

I'll put on a smile and follow life's beat

'Cuz fighting isn't worth it anymore
Sometimes things just can't get better
You're standing in rain and you
Still can get wetter
It's not gonna change a thing
We just gotta wait til spring

And when you hear the lightning crash
From the skies above
Jump on in and take a splash
Do you get what I was thinking of?

'Cuz even the ground comes from beneath our feet
I'll put on a smile and follow life's beat
I can't fight it anymore
Seems like things just can't get better
You're in the rain, and you can get wetter
It's not gonna change a thing
(We can get wetter)
We've gotta wait til spring
(Just keep holding on)
Keep waiting for spring

I Feel Stupid

Stop being stupid, baby
You're getting a bit too old
To play these games
You can get over this
It'll take work
It'll take dexterity
But I believe in you

You Lost Me At 'Can We Talk'

No way I can accept it
I don't want to forget it
But I can't just forgive it
You hurt me too bad

Give me an explanation
For this unreal sensation
Past my imagination
I don't understand
I don't understand

You had me
You had me
In your control
I was a puppet on a string
You could ask me anything
Now it's gone
It's gone
I moved on to a new love song
You had me
You had me

I gave you a chance
For a real romance
It was a wonderul plan
But you shot it down

Now I feel like a fool
You played me like a tool
Drown me in this pool
Of tears on the ground

You had me
You had me
In your control
I was a puppet on a string
You could ask me anything
Now it's gone
It's gone
I moved on to a new love song
You had me
You had me

Regain me
Regain me
To your control
You had me
You had me
You have me
You have me
You have me
You have me

You had me
You had me
In your control
I was a puppet on a string
You could ask me anything
Now it's gone
It's gone
I moved on to a new love song
You had me
You had me

Baby, you have me...

I Know How to Be Strong

Yeah, my self-confidence may
Be in the ground
But even I know a sane girl
Wouldn't stick around to
Put up with this harsh reality
That there was never gonna be
You and me
So I guess there's only one thing
To say

I'm moving on
Gonna get myself out of this hole
Growing up
Let the emotions out of my soul
Let myself shine
And prove them wrong
'Cuz one thing's clear
I know how to be strong

So maybe life's not what I wanted
For me
But now it's time to show the world
Who I can be
They don't see it, and maybe
They don't care
But when they see that diamond
Baby, they'll stare

I'm moving on
Gotta get myself out of this hole
Growing up
Let the emotion out of my soul
Let myself shine
And prove them wrong
'Cuz I'm sure of it:
I know how to be strong

Even when you want to
Drop and give it up
Raise your battle flag
Baby, let's live it up

I'm moving on
Gotta get myself out of this hole
Growing up
Let the emotion out of my soul
Let the real me shine
And prove them wrong
'Cuz I' m sure that
I know how to be strong

Oh, don't worry about me
I know how to be strong

Weathered Emotions

When do the raindrops fall?
In the morning when the robin calls?
Or at night, when the moon is high
And we sit outside, looking up at the sky?

When does the light shine bright?
In the afternoon instead of night?
Or over the early morning's dew
When I sing, 'I'm sorry, too'?

When does a heart shatter?
When the raindrops fall, pitter-patter?
Or when the sun shines over us all
Maybe that's when a heart will fall...

Evening Light

If you hear my voice in the evening light
Whispering to the darkened shadows
Don't mind it
I'll be staring off into the distance
Leaving unspoken words behind
'I'm broken and hurt and alone'
No hope shines through the stars
Glistening in the navy sky
When you hear my voice in the evening light

Reminiscing

Do you remember the days
When 'happy' was my middle name?
Do you remember the days
When I never hurt?
Do you remember the days
When we held conversations?
Do you remember the days
When I was actually okay?

Pretending

Sometimes things just come
To an end
I can't get my dream around
Every bend
And I'm sick of taking chances
Tired of missing every shot
Trying to find a storyline
I know I've forgot

Maybe I've lost everything
I thought I knew
Can't keep pretending that
I can keep up with you
I'm wearing a mask that
Makes me look stronger
Don't know if I can hold
On for much longer

Each and every day I'm
Clinging to this path
Just want to make all the
Good moments last
Can believe that I'm not
Good enough anymore
Insecurity is knocking
On my door

Maybe I've lost everything
I thought I knew
Can't keep pretending that
I can keep up with you
I'm wearing a mask that
Makes me look stronger
Don't know if I can
Hold on for much longer

Sometimes things just
Fall apart
Its getting so hard to
Follow my heart
Just another battle that
I have to face
Don't know how I
Can keep up this pace

Oh, it's getting harder
To make it through
Harder
To be with you
Tougher
To get a grip
Trying
Not to slip

Oh, I'm trying so hard
Not to slip!!

Maybe I've lost everything
I thought I knew
Can't keep pretending that
I can keep up with you
I'm wearing a mask that
Makes me look stronger
Don't know if I can hold
On for much longer

Sometimes things just fall
Apart
It's getting too hard to
Follow my heart
I don't think that I can
Push it until the end
Can't get my dream
Around every bend

Do You Mind?

Can we talk?
Do you mind?
There's something going on
But I can't find
The right answers

I need help
Do you mind?
There's something going on
But I can't find
Anyone who'll hear

Will you save me from
My problems?
I need an escape
Will you save me from
My issues?
I need you
Can you help me?
Can you help me?
'Cuz I'm alone

Do you hear
My problems?
There's something wrong
But I can't find
Anyone who'll listen

I want love
Do you mind?
There's something missing
But I can't pintpoint
What it would be

Will you save me from
My problems?
I need an escape
Will you save me from
My issues?
I need you
Can you help me?
Can you help me?
'Cuz I'm alone

Will you save me from
My problems?
Can you help me?
Can you help me?
'Cuz I'm alone

Happy

Give me one good reason
To keep believing in happy
Endings
Give me one good reason
To think that I deserve
Better than the crap I put
Up with
Give me one good reason
As to why I shouldn't let
People walk all over me
Give me one good reason
To keep trying to make
Everyone but myself
Happy

I Can Take It

I'll ask of you one good reason
To talk abot me like I don't exist
I think I deserve it, don't I?
I'm not a little kid anymore
Therefore I can take whatever you
Might want to throw at me
And trust me, I can probably throw
It right back at you, and you'll
Never know what hit you
So why not grow a pair and
Say it to my face?
I'm a big girl: I can take it

Hope or Stupidity

I'll admit it, that was
An atom bomb on my part
Oh well, sorry babe
Can't help who I like
And yeah, I'm brave
But I sure as hell don't
Know if it was
Hope or stupidity

Broken

Deep inside my soul you'll find
An aching pain; it's hard to
Explain how
Badly it hurts
Sometimes it even hurts
To breathe

'Cuz I'm broken
Fragile to the extreme
Burning
Unable to scream
Hard to ignore
This hurt, these sores
I'm broken

Once you reach the heart
Of me, and find my old memories
I will
Show you all my fears and
Pray that you won't tell

I'm broken
Fragile to the extreme
Burning
Unable to scream
Hard to ignore this
Hurt, these sores
I'm broken

Deep inside my soul you'll find
An aching pain
That I can't explain

I'm broken
Fragile to the extreme
Burning
Unable to scream
Hard to ignore this
Hurt, these sores
I'm broken

It's hard to explain...

It's Not Fair

Well, I never said I was
Happy and I never
Gave you my word
That I'd put on those
Fake smiles and
Pretend to be okay for
A while

So I'm sorry that I've got
Issues
I can't run from the truth:
Inside I'm bleedin' and
Broken and cryin' and
Dyin'
I can't hide the proof

The rain falls while the
Lightning flashes, thunder
Crashes, floods a smile
Breaks her heart and
Suffocates her
Slowly, slowly
She can't stop the blood
From pulsing through her
Veins and trailing down
While she's in pain
It's not fair
But the world doesn't care

I never promised that I
Would never be in pain
'Cuz by doing so I'd have
To be pyschic and baby
That's not my game

She never told you she
Loved you, so get the hell
Over it
Man up and grow a set
The rain is falling
Run inside: you're getting
Wet

The rain falls while
The lightning flashes,
Thunder crashes, floods
A smile, breaks her heart
And suffocates her
Slowly, slowly
She can't stop the blood
From pulsing through her
Veins and trailing down
While she's in pain
It's not fair
But the world doesn't care

I never said I was
Happy
And I'm sick of those
Fake smiles

The rain falls while
The lightning flashes,
Thunder crashes, floods
A smile, breaks her heart
And suffocates her
Slowly, slowly
She can't stop the blood
From pulsing through
Her veins and trailing
Down while she's in pain
It's not fair
But the world doesn't care

I never said I was happy
And I'm sick of those
Fake smiles...

Caught

I've been waiting on
The horizon, but the
View is still the same
And I'm sick of trying
To win a hopeless game
I'm through with giving
In to what I never wanted
Baby, I'm tired, so tired
Of being hated

The sun rises, then it sets
I'm like a dolphin in a net
Free only in mind, I want
To leave this world behind
But I can't escape fate

Rant/Poem: Get Over It

Stop staring at him
With your big blue eyes
He's got a girlfriend
And it's not you nor I
She's the center of his
World
You had your chance
Now get over it

My Heart

Break it.
Stomp it.
Smash it.
Hold it.
Nurture it.
Kill it.
Rip it.
Shred it.
Love it.

Your Arms II: A Different Setting

Leaning back against your knees
I stare at the gorey movement
You grumble slight, and I sigh
In response
I close my eyes
And pray that I won't break down
In front of you, no matter
How badly I long for those arms
To be mine

Your Arms

Curled up against your knees
Contently watching the scene
Listening to youe soft breathing
And low sighs
Shifting slightly, nuzzling into you
And you move for me
Comforting me and supporting
My back
By far the closest I'll get to
Being in your arms

Goddess

You are:
Msuic.
Breath.
Thoughts.
Dreams.
Songs.
Poems.
World.
Life.
Love.
Everything.
Thank you.

Tears

Tears fall from her eyes
Solashing down like rain
Breaking the silence
With broken sobs
A scream
A flash of light
She spills her soul
Into the puddle of tears
That pool on the
Icy ground

Me

Easily broken.
Hard to endure.
Fragile.
Strong.
Sad.
Happy.
In love, or like...
Beautiful.
Frightening.
Small.
Meek.
Unbending.
Breakable.
Harsh.
Caring.
Compassionate.
Me.

xXxXx

I'm not afraid of them
Knowing of this
I don't care about
The rumors
I just can't stand to
Bottle it up
So I'll give you my
Whole heart
But don't break it.
Or else.

Raindrops

Silvery like the moon
Harsh, stinging
Quickly falling
From the sky
Impaling the earth
Drip, drop
Drip, drop

What I Feel

Loathing.
Hatred.
Anxiety.
Nervousness.
Anger.
Sorrow.
Depression.
Remorse.
Uncertainty.
Happiness.
Glee.
Confidence.
Exhiliration.
Excitement.
Determination.
Love. <3

Dawn

At dusk, clouds cover the
Seemingly bright horizon
They then spiral into a mad
Storm and shower us with rain
The children cry as you pull away
From what you had lied about
And said you lived for
You could not deal with the pain
Of your own paranoid mind
Why push into territories
Where there is nothing to be
Uncovered, dug up?
Her past is not coming back
It's your own choice
But by tomorrow, you will regret
It, and I'll wake up to a new
Dawn

Drop Me A Letter

Drop me a letter
Attached to a star
Keep me forever
Love all my scars
I'm just so glad
That I've made it
This far, so drop
Me a letter attached
To a star

I Wrote Your Love Song

So I take it you don't trust me?
Well, I guess I'm used to it by now
Considering I wrote this love song
For you, there's no reason to
Be wary of me
I'm no threat to the two of you
I've got my own sights set
And they're nothing like your's

Black And White

Every day may seem like a new beginning
But to some, it may be the next day
Closer to Death's skeletal hand
Not everything, however, is black and white
Even though there are two sides to every
Fairytale ending
Without the separate sides, though,
Our world as we know it would
Collapse
Whether or not you accept these
Factors of everday life
Do not forget that they are there

Song for xXXx

I should’ve learned my lesson
By now and put up my defenses
‘Cuz by opening barely healed
Wounds the cut gets so much
Deeper

I should’ve stopped the hoping
By now, I know good things
Won’t come for those who wait

It’s hard to think that I was liked
For who I am, and harder still to
Think that I was stupid enough to
Believe

I should’ve learned my lesson
By now and put up my defenses
‘Cuz by opening these unhealed
Wounds the cuts, they get all the
Deeper

I should’ve stopped the hoping
By now ‘cuz good things don’t
Come to those who wait

One Day

One day, I’m finally going to lose it.
The walls will shatter to the ground
And smash my soul into dust.
Everything will turn to nothing.
The only escape will be the shadows.
And no one, no one in the whole world,
Will shed a single tear.
I can’t say I blame them.
I wouldn’t be crying, either.
One day, when love turns to hate
Time will cease to move for me.
Everything will finally be okay.
Not only for me, but for everyone
Else.

Isn’t that what’s important?

Author's Note: I no longer feel this way. No worries, be happy. Just thought this was well written. =)

My Wish

I wished on a star last night
Don’t know if it’ll come true
Wanna know what I wished?
I wished for a happiness unlike any other
Happiness unexplainable, but that
I’m going to try and explain anyway
It’s like waking up to a new day that’s
Just perfect
Not too hot, yet gorgeous
With a cool breeze
Or it could be a happiness like hearing
Music so beautiful, it feels like you could
Melt into it or sing along
Do you get what I mean?
Because you know what would make me
So very happy like that?
You.

They'd Kill To See Her Fall

She holds her head up high
‘Cause the world would kill
To see her fall
And she wants to feel alive
But can’t find a way at all
And on the inside, she’s
Ripping herself apart
Trying to claw her way through
The agony, misery
Alone in a broken world, no
One can, or will, help her find
Her way to the light
She’s fragile, breakable
Beautiful.
But everyone wants to prove
Her wrong…

Miracles

It’s safe to say that she’s
Given up on miracles,
Wishing stars and 11:11
Because no matter how hard
She tries, she’s never gotten
That happy ending, not even
For a moment
And it’s sad to think that a
Girl so beautiful and caring
Was not ever given a chance

It’s a battle that she’s never
Winning
It’s the last mile, but she’s done
Giving
She’s lost her faith in humanity
‘Cause they’ve never proved her
Wrong
And she’s done with being strong

Why push so hard when the wall
Is unbreakable to you, and you’re
Alone?
Everyone permeates through it
But you can’t get in, not even
If you pretend to be them
It’s sad that someone who’d
Give her life for anyone was
Never, ever loved

It’s a battle that she’s never
Winning
It’s the last mile, but she’s done giving
She’s lost her faith in humanity
‘Cause they’ve never proved her
Wrong
And she’s done with being strong

Make the World Jealous

It never really has worked out for me
I’d like to think that one of these days
It will
That I’ll find someone to love me
Unconditionally and indescribably
Every time I see him, my heart starts
To pound against my chest
And I want to curl up into his arms
They just look so inviting
He’s amazing
And I wish he loved me back
Because together, we could
Make the entire world jealous

My Addiction

It cracks me open, pummels me
Into the earth, rips me to shreds,
Destroys my sanity, beats me to
A pulp and leaves me broken
And crying. But I, being the idiot
I am, keep going back.
Back to my love drunken,
Heart-breaking, earth-shattering
Addiction.

And no matter what,
I can’t break it’s hold.

I swear, I’m addicted.

Blue and Red Collide

Cool blue waves lapping
Against the warm, red sand
Navy gloves holding
A maroon covered hand
More different than anything
Nature had planned
Going against what
The world will command

The time’s so short
The day’s so long
Leaving my port
Remaining strong
Keep up the pace
Don’t be scared
Show your face
It’s only fair

Russet sunset fading
Into a midnight sky
A crimson smile due to
An azure eye
What is it that these differences
Will imply?
It’s the contrast between some
Such as you and I

The time’s so short
The day’s so long
Leaving my port
Remaining strong
Keep up the pace
Don’t be scared
Show your face
It’s only fair

Too Late

Is time just an empty word that
Has no meaning whatsoever?
Or does it keep us all in place,
Day after day, forever and ever?
Maybe it’s the keeper of our hopes
And of our dreams, or…
Could it be the one who rips us
Open at our seams?

But, can it be too late to say the
Loving words we say?
Isn’t it too late to leave the
Crowd instead of stay ?
Why not change time and flip
To the past?
Why not go back and
Make the moments last?

Isn’t life just enough to make us
Want to keep on living?
Or do we just wanna fall while
Inside we’re breaking but still giving?
Maybe life’s the reason that time
Isn’t just an empty word
Or maybe it’s telling the tale of what
We said, what really occurred

But, can it be too late to say the
Loving words we say?
Isn’t it too late to leave the
Crowd instead of stay ?
Why not change time and flip
To the past?
Why not go back and
Make the moments last?

Is time just an empty word
(That has no meaning whatsoever?)
Or does it keep us all in place?
(Forever and ever)

Can it be too late to say ‘Sorry?’
Can it be too late to say
‘I never meant to hurt you?’

Over

Etched out before you is
The note I wrote last night
I guess you see me now in
Different light
In my mind what I said to
You made perfect sense
Baby, ‘cause even during
Good times we were tense
And that note said

Baby, my walls aren’t coming down
I guess we’re done; stop
Comin’ round
It’s over
Oh, over
I gave my all, but it’s not enough
‘Cause this barriers made of
Stronger stuff
Trust takes long seasons to grow
And it’s something you don’t know

And so, I’m sitting in my room
With the lights off
Wondering how I let myself
Grow so soft
By tomorrow, it’ll all begin again
With me questioning how to let
My heart open
And I remember

Baby, my walls aren't coming down
I guess we're done; stop
Coming 'round
It's over
Oh, over
I gave my all, but it's not enough
'Cause this barrier's made of
Stonger stuff
Trust takes long seasons to grow
And it's something you don't know

With that said, I’ve realized
How hard it is to love
So every night, I look out my
Window and whisper to the stars
Above


Baby, my walls aren’t coming down
I guess we’re done; stop
Comin’ round
It’s over
It's over
I gave my all, but it’s not enough
‘Cause this barriers made of
Stronger stuff
Trust takes long seasons to grow
And it’s something you don’t know

Oh, it’s something you will
Never know

Maybe

I can’t help but notice
The way you look at me
But I know it can’t happen
It just wasn’t meant to be
‘Cuz I’ve been there before
And I walked out the door

But should I have held on
And maybe let you through
These walls
Walk on down through the
Halls and look into my
Memories?
Should I have opened up
A new door, led you until
We were at the top floor
Of me?
Or maybe it wasn’t right
Or maybe not for me

Sometimes I’m jealous if
You look at other girls
‘Cuz I’m not the one who’s
The center of your world
I’ve been through it all
And I was the one to fall

Should I have held on
And maybe let you through
These walls
Walk on down through the
Halls and look into my
Memories?
Should I have opened up a
New door, led you until we
Were at the top floor of me?
Or maybe it just wasn’t right
Or maybe not for me

Sometimes I wonder if I’d
Be the perfect one
If everything would be lovely
Exciting and fun
Or is it that I don’t like it
Enough to push on through
Maybe I’m in love
Maybe just not with you

I used to wonder
Should I have held on
And maybe let you through
The walls, walk on down
Uncharted halls, to peer
At my memories?
Should I have opened up
That new door and taken
You up to the top floor of
Me?

Or maybe I’m not ready
Maybe it’s too soon
Maybe I’m too innocent
Maybe I’m in love
Maybe not with you

Maybe it’s not meant to be
Or at least not with me
Oh, not with me

Lightning and Thunder Crashes

Do you remember
How our fairytale went
When we promised
That we’d live
Happily ever after?
How the mornings
Were a brighter start
To a life so filled with love
And the days went by
And you were
Who I thought of

But the heartbreak is a
Different story
Being sung to a
Different tune
The melody can
Change from one of
Life and laughter
To a symphony
Of lightning
And thunder crashes

Do you remember
When I told you
The truth
And your rejection
Hit me like a bullet
Oh, please remember
How those evenings
Were an ending to
A day once so joyful
And the night passed
On with a shooting star
Fading into the distance

The heartbreak is a
Different story
Being sung to a
Different tune
The melody can
Change from one of
Life and laughter
To a symphony
Of lightning
And thunder crashes

Just Ask

She’s got her daddy’s temper
And her mama’s eyes
She knows when to run
She knows how to cry
And she can’t help but picture
A life so much greater than this

She has blonde curls and
A fear of rejection
She’s close to accepting
Imperfections
And she can’t help but
Wonder, why am I here?

She’s got a natural beauty
One that can’t be described
Her entire being makes you
Feel alive and she’ll give you
Her everything…
Just ask

She grew up in a small town
Outside of Chicago
But wants to travel to some
Place exotic
And she dreams of playing
In the honors band

And one day she’ll grow up
And do something great
Maybe she’ll even have been
On a date
By that time, the world will
Be so clear

She’s got a natural beauty
One that can’t be described
Her entire being makes you
Feel alive and she’ll give you
Her everything…
Just ask

She has a way with words
And a way around
This tiny place she calls
Her hometown
And one day, she’ll look back
And miss it

She’s got a natural beauty
One that can’t be described
Her entire being makes you
Feel alive and she’ll give up
Her whole life for you
Just ask
　

Beautiful

She’s beautiful
Oh, she tries
But you don’t know
How hard she cries
At night before she
Drifts off to sleep

‘Cuz at her school
Almost everyone has
Blonde hair, and oh
A boyfriend
I guess she just
Doesn’t fit in

One minute, blood’s
Running down her arm
The next second, she’s
Playing up her charm
Fighting to survive
Wants to feel alive
‘Cuz she doesn’t know
She’s beautiful

She’s judged by
The way she looks
Her music and favorite
Books and can’t seem
To escape this hell!

She’s upset at every
Moment
Dying, but she won’t
Show it, absolutely
Screaming for help
　
One minute, blood’s
Running down her arm
The next second, she’s
Playing up her charm
Fighting to survive
Wants to feel alive
‘Cuz she doesn’t know
She’s beautiful

One day, she’ll
Give up her battle
Give up on life
If she can’t find her
Way to the light
　
One minute, blood’s
Running down her arm
The next second, she’s
Playing up her charm
Fighting to survive
Wants to feel alive
‘Cuz she doesn’t know
She’s beautiful

Define Hurt

How do you feel when you hurt her?
When you leave her broken upon the ground
How do you feel when you break her?
Into pieces without a trace or sound

It was anything but the truth
You keep on doing this to her
Eventually she’ll find the proof
But if this is what you prefer
I’m sure you won’t mind
If you fall behind
Define hurt

How did you feel when you cheated?
Was it what you needed all along?
In the end did you feel completed?
Did it make you feel so very strong?

It was anything but the truth
You keep on doing this to her
Eventually she’ll find the proof
But if this is what you prefer
I’m sure you won’t mind
If you fall behind
Define hurt

(Instrumental)

Oh, yeah
When she sees what’s underneath
Will you care when she can’t breathe?!

(Chorus in Background)
Why, oh, why?
Oh, why did you do that to her?
Eventually she found her proof
But it was what you preferred
Ohhhh
But, did you mind
When you fell behind?
Did you mind?
Define hurt
Oh, oh, oh…
Define hurt

Simple As That

Hello. It's been a lovely year, hasn't it?

This is where I'll put all of my songs and poems. They may from the distant past or very recent ones.

Comments are welcome.

xoxo