I Deserve It

You deserve to be shot

I get it
I'm a bitch
I can accept that
But no way in hell
Do I deserve to be shot

Or do I?

Am I really that bad of a person?
Am I really that inconsiderate?

You say you're like me
Lies
You say you're a cutter
Then why do my words offend?

I'm not an idiot
I know what game you're playing
And trust me, you're fighting the fire
I can play this five million times better
I know my way around the block

I'm not a druggie, like you
I'm not a slut, like you
I'm not an idiot, like you

Don't you dare judge me
You don't fucking know me
I'm not what you first see
There's a different side of
This story

And I sure as hell could
Read it to you before your
Bedtime, little girl.

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Best Friends Forever

What a lie
What a stupid cliche
I need to stop being stupid

You're never going to be
Her number one
You rank farther down than
The rest of her friends

Stop this madness
Stop being an idiot

The voices scream to me
I hide from them, yelling
"No, no, not her! She
Won't leave me now!"

But in the end, the voices win.
I'm losing her.
I know I am.
It hurts.

I have no one else.
I don't know what to do.

I'm losing everyone.
Even the people I thought
Were my best friends.

What a lie.
What a stupid cliche.
You'll never be good enough.

Gah.

I'm sick of it ending
Like this
It hurts
I cry
Why can't they help?
I hate the pain
I hate the sores
Oh, it kills
I hate this

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Stupid Girl: A Self-Portrait

Get shrugged off one more time
Tell the world you'll be fine
When he breaks your heart
Can't find the strength to restart

Stupid girl
Wipe your eyes
It's your fault
You believe his lies
Oh, it hurts
But you're so naive
Run back to him
'Cuz you believe
Stupid girl
Don't believe in love

Let him break you one more time
Tell your friends you'll be fine
All he does is hurt you
But you believe the lies are true

Stupid girl
Wipe your eyes
It's your fault
You believed his lies
Oh, it hurts
But you're so naive
Run back to him
'Cuz you believe
Stupid girl
Don't believe in love

Estrella

Flow forth from the heavens
Oh, tears of sorrow
Drop from the sky
And caress the lonely

Drown all the dreams
Oh, tears of sorrow
Fall to the earth
And sustain the need

Can't stop this feeling
Can't stop this needing
Oh, no
Can't stop this feeling
Can't stop the needing

Watch as the Angel of Death
Falls from grace
A blood-red river flows at a
Daring pace
Hope's pale cream nails leave
The scars on her face
Give her a reason for running
This race

Flow forth from the heavens
Oh, tears of sorrow
Drop from the sky
And caress the lonely

Can't stop this feeling
Can't stop this needing

Watch as the Angel of Death
Falls from grace
A blood-red river flows at a
Daring pace
Hope's pale cream nails leave
The scars on her face
Give her a reason for running
This race

zzZZZ

It's a snowfall
Fading into the eart
Dropping a star from
The heavens
Holding a crystal in
Her hands
It's falling
Leaving us after we're
Graced with
It's presence
Don't leave me
Don't leave me

Stop It, Baby

Stop it, baby
You can't take this hurt
Anymore
You know he's all you want
You know he's what you need
But don't go there
Don't do it
He's not worth the tears

Stop it, baby
Your heart can't handle this
Pain
I know you love him
I know he's what your heart craves
But don't go there
Don't do this
He's not worth your heartache

Stop it, baby
Your heart can't deal with these
Sores
Everyone knows you need him
We know your music's for him
But don't go there
Don't do it
He's not worth your love

Tell Me You'll Save Me

I'll reach down and pull you
Up from the flames
Swim out to sea and keep
You from drowning
But can anyone save me?

I swear, I'm lost
I swear, I can't find light
I swear, these smiles just
Prevent the questions

I'd take bullet after bullet
For the rest of the world
I'll let anyone hold my
Head under water
But would anyone try to save me?

I swear, I'm lonely
I swear, it's dark outside
I swear, the smiles are part
Of my feigned happiness

Can anyone save me?

Stop Failing

The world fell from my feet
And left me hanging
Stop it, stupid girl
You can't do anything right
Give up
The world screams it at you
You're not worth even the
Tears you cry
You're never going to
Be good enough for
Anyone
Stop trying, stupid girl
The world can't wait to
See you fall

April Showers

You said things would be better

But they're not

You said I'd be okay

But I'm not

You told me you loved me

But you don't

You said it'd be alright

But it's not



And when things come tumbling down

The only part that can't be taken

Is the barren, blackened ground

And if I'm not mistaken



Even it comes from beneath our feet

I'll put on a smile and follow life's beat

'Cuz fighting isn't worth it anymore

Sometimes things just can't get better

You're standing in rain but you can get wetter

It's not gonna change a thing

I just gotta wait 'til spring



You asked if I was okay

But I'm not

I told you I was fine

But I lied

You told me there was

No one better

I scoffed at that and

Pleaded for truth



And when you're seeming beat

The only thing that can prevail

Is the earth beneath our feet

But sometimes it'll fail



Even it comes from beneath our feet

I'll put on a smile and follow life's beat

'Cuz fighting isn't worth it anymore
Sometimes things just can't get better
You're standing in rain and you
Still can get wetter
It's not gonna change a thing
We just gotta wait til spring

And when you hear the lightning crash
From the skies above
Jump on in and take a splash
Do you get what I was thinking of?

'Cuz even the ground comes from beneath our feet
I'll put on a smile and follow life's beat
I can't fight it anymore
Seems like things just can't get better
You're in the rain, and you can get wetter
It's not gonna change a thing
(We can get wetter)
We've gotta wait til spring
(Just keep holding on)
Keep waiting for spring

I Feel Stupid

Stop being stupid, baby
You're getting a bit too old
To play these games
You can get over this
It'll take work
It'll take dexterity
But I believe in you

You Lost Me At 'Can We Talk'

No way I can accept it
I don't want to forget it
But I can't just forgive it
You hurt me too bad

Give me an explanation
For this unreal sensation
Past my imagination
I don't understand
I don't understand

You had me
You had me
In your control
I was a puppet on a string
You could ask me anything
Now it's gone
It's gone
I moved on to a new love song
You had me
You had me

I gave you a chance
For a real romance
It was a wonderul plan
But you shot it down

Now I feel like a fool
You played me like a tool
Drown me in this pool
Of tears on the ground

You had me
You had me
In your control
I was a puppet on a string
You could ask me anything
Now it's gone
It's gone
I moved on to a new love song
You had me
You had me

Regain me
Regain me
To your control
You had me
You had me
You have me
You have me
You have me
You have me

You had me
You had me
In your control
I was a puppet on a string
You could ask me anything
Now it's gone
It's gone
I moved on to a new love song
You had me
You had me

Baby, you have me...

I Know How to Be Strong

Yeah, my self-confidence may
Be in the ground
But even I know a sane girl
Wouldn't stick around to
Put up with this harsh reality
That there was never gonna be
You and me
So I guess there's only one thing
To say

I'm moving on
Gonna get myself out of this hole
Growing up
Let the emotions out of my soul
Let myself shine
And prove them wrong
'Cuz one thing's clear
I know how to be strong

So maybe life's not what I wanted
For me
But now it's time to show the world
Who I can be
They don't see it, and maybe
They don't care
But when they see that diamond
Baby, they'll stare

I'm moving on
Gotta get myself out of this hole
Growing up
Let the emotion out of my soul
Let myself shine
And prove them wrong
'Cuz I'm sure of it:
I know how to be strong

Even when you want to
Drop and give it up
Raise your battle flag
Baby, let's live it up

I'm moving on
Gotta get myself out of this hole
Growing up
Let the emotion out of my soul
Let the real me shine
And prove them wrong
'Cuz I' m sure that
I know how to be strong

Oh, don't worry about me
I know how to be strong