Sweet Serenade

Scream it to me
I'll accept you, I will
Break me down
Bury me one last time

This is my farewell
This is my goodbye
I'm leaving you behind

Scream it to me
I didn't mean for it to end like this
Lie to me
Kill me one last time

This is my sanctuary
This is my soul
I'm leaving it for you to find

Scream it to me
I'm sorry, so sorry
Plead to me
Beg to me one last time

This is my serenade
This is my sweet revenge
I'm leaving it for you to grieve with

Last Chance

I trusted you
I honestly did
I cared about you
I honestly did

And for what?
Is this what you want?
To leave me behind?

I'll do it
Just ask me
I can
Just believe

One more cut
Is all it takes
One more pill
No more mistakes

I trusted you
I really did
I cared for you
I really did

And for what?
To be forgotten?
Is this what you want?

Say the word
I'll do it
Just believe
And I'm there

One more blade
I want to bleed
One more pill
Is all I need

This is the last chance
Do or die...

Author's Note: I was in a verrrry stormy mood during this time. I needed to release dark energies.

Away

Say good-bye
'Cuz I'm falling into comatose
Say good-bye
I don't think I'm coming back
Say good-bye
'Cuz from this point on, I'm letting go
Say good-bye
I doubt you'd shed a single tear

Fifteen years
Turn to fragments of milliseconds
And my life flashes before me

The shards explode into misery
Prick me 'til I'm drowning
And throw me to the ground

I trusted you
And I knew it was stupid
I knew it was a mistake
As usual

Say good-bye
I'm slipping away

I Found It Funny

I find it funny
That the only time you care
Is when you're in the wrong
I find it funny
That the only time you care
Is when she's gonna be there
I find it funny
That the only time you care
Is when you know you're in trouble

Sorry isn't gonna cut it this time
Bet you'd like to see me crying
I fuel the fire in my own heart
I let myself burn to pieces
And watch the embers fly
Smoldering in the darkness

Something To Commend Me For

For a millisecond
I believed in something more
Than what I perceived to be
The inescapable timeframe of mine
Of mine

For a millisecond
I thought of something different
Than trying to mend my broken heart
The incredible loneliness, I never
Thought I'd feel it again, again

But why couldn't I be worth it?
What was so wrong with me?
Sure, I'm not beautiful or wonderful
Like she is, but there's gotta be
Something to commend me for

And there was something
To enjoy, maybe the company
Guess I felt really alone
Couldn't control the way my mind worked
Not today, oh not today

But why couldn't I be worth it?
What was so wrong with me?
Sure, I'm not beautiful or wonderful
Like she is, but there's gotta be
Something to commend me for

I guess me being lonely
Isn't good enough an excuse
I guess I can't control my heart
Hang onto these words

Why wasn't I worth it?
What's so wrong with me?
I'm unbeautiful, impossible
And I'll never, ever be her

Why am I not worth it?
What's so wrong with me?
I know I'm unbeautiful
And I wonder
If there's something to
Commend me for

hUN You're So (Self-Portrait II)

Untouchable
Unlovable
Inexcusable
Deniable
Inevitable
Unbeautiful

Fate

Bounding to forever
Leaping to an infinite fate
Crawling to eternity
I cry forth
Blessings upon thy future
Tidings on thy love

Horizon

Absolve to be
Everything you ever wanted
I see it on the horizon
Nothing scares me more
The fear, the fury
Peace, even so

xXxX

Dripping with jealousy
Seething with rage
Crying with sorrow
Falling with fear

Infinity

Rip me into infinity
I'll proudly commend you for it
Bury me, bury me
There's security underground

For I feel the night
Erupting from the day
I feel the day
Surrendering to night

Masquerade without your mask
Mutilate without the blade
Take my life without the gun
As I fade away

Rip me into infinity
I'll take every single word
Tear me down, tear me down
I can take it

For I feel the pain
And suffering in life
I feel the dark
In your soul

Masquerade without the mask
Mutilate without the blade
Take my life without the gun
As I fade away

Pull the trigger on my mind
Delve deeper into my soul
Pray to Goddess I survive
Lest I fade away

Rip me into infinity
I'll take every single word
Bury me, bury me
I can take it

Masquerade without the mask
Mutilate without the blade
Take my life without the gun
As I fade away

Pull the trigger on my mind
Delve deeper into my soul
Pray to Goddess I survive
Lest I fade away

Trigger

Except for a broken heart
I guess that I'm okay
Except for a bruised soul
I can make it through the day

Without these tears
I wouldn't be here
Without my words
I can't live

Except for a torn belief
I guess that I'll be fine
Except for being lonely
I can live without you as mine

Without these tears
I wouldn't be here
Without these words
I can't go on

I see it
I hear it
I miss it

Without these tears
I can't be here
Without these words
I can't live

Without these tears
I can't go on

Ignoring Me

Make up your mind
What you're doing
Is hypocrisy

Ignore me as I speak
But then try and try
Again and again
What gives you this right?

Make up your mind
I'm done

Alone

I bet you don't see her
No, not that girl
Hiding behind a mask
The one inside
The one with issues
The one with no confidence
The unhappy girl who
Sees the good in everyone
But refuses to look herself
In the mirror and tell herself
That she's pretty
Or even average
Doubtful, alone
Scared, hurting
Can anyone break the barriers?
Can anyone try to help her?
Will you save her?

Good-bye

Losing a never-ending game
Repeatedly trying
Repeatedly failing
I miss you, I miss you
And I don't want to leave
But I have to

'Cuz every time my heart breaks
I go back for more
Every time I hear her name
I can't find what I'm looking for
And I'm too far gone
To patch things up
So I guess this is good-bye

Failing at every opportunity
Repeatedly wishing
Repeatedly losing
I'll miss you, I'll miss you
I don't want to give in
But I must

'Cuz every time my heart breaks
I go back for more
Every time I hear her name
I can't find what I was looking for
I'm too far gone to patch this up
So I guess this is good-bye

Every time my heart breaks
I go back for more
I have to stop this game of love
So I guess this is good-bye

Because of Chance

By chance
I met an interesting path
By chance
I let myself bleed into it
By chance
I held on until I broke
By chance
I'll ride the roller coaster again

You, you, you
Are the reason
For every single tear
Running down my cheeks

You, you, you
Are the reason
My heart breaks
At fourth hour daily

Don't forget to throw in a twist
'Cuz what's my life without
Hurting the people I care most about?

Then you
Had to walk into my life
And you
Had to throw me that curve ball
And you
Made my heart ache

By chance
I'll try to forget
By chance
Maybe I can move on
By chance
I'll hope again
By chance
I'll give up

You, you, you
Are the one I'm in love with
And you
Just had to make things difficult

Letting Go Of You

Eventually you just gotta stop
Look back at the tears
And ask yourself
Was it really worth it?
'Cuz honestly, I'm doubting it
By the Goddess,
Falling in love with you
Was amazing
But it was unrequited
And so I give
Let go of the past
Breathe in the air
And jump out of my comfort zone

Eventually there comes a point
When you just can't take it
Anymore
And end up letting go of
The best thing that ever
Walked into your life

Eternity

Provide me
With a light, with a sign
With an answer
It's all I ask
All I want
All I need

Give me
A force or a change
Or a love
Bring it to me

I can feel myself slipping
Deeper into this current
Oh, what feels like an eternity
I shall let it pass

Pardon My Falling

Forgive me
I seem to have fallen
Into your eyes
Pull me out?
Pardon me
I want to fall
Into your arms
Help me in?
Excuse me
I seem to have fallen
In love with you
Fall back with me?

A Political Statement

An innovative voice
From a crowd of conformity
They shun her ideals
Shred her religion
Destroy her beliefs

But she is the change
She's open-minded and loving
Carefree and accepting
A spark of light in the dark

A boy opens his eyes
And hears the lies
They spill like water
Thicken like blood
End like it's 2012

But he is the change
He's open-minded and thoughtful
Inquisitive and forgiving
A spark of light in the dark

She is a youth
With her head in the clouds
But conformists try
To pull her down
Again, again

He is a boy
With his mind wandering
But his parents try
To bring him back
Again, again

But she is the change
She's open-minded and loving
Carefree and accepting
A spark of light in the dark

He is the change
He's open-minded and thoughtful
Inquisitive and forgiving
A spark of light in the dark

They are the change
The sparks of hope in the dark

Envious

Side by side
Closely walking
Down the halls
Looking directly
Into each others' eyes
Hands touch
Grasp
Oh, I envy them so