Bullet

Every night
The same dream
For nights past

Get out, get out
Of course you're there
Of course

Texting my cell phone
Asking me to get ready
For what?

Going to somewhere nice, yes?
How fun for us
Black dress, white cardi, blue Converse

And I wait
And wait
And wait some more

White, stretch Hummer pulls up
Right in front of my driveway
What is going on?

And there you are
Hair disorderly, black Converse
Red band tee, dark jeans, black jacket

You take my hand
Practically drag me into the vehicle
And we leave

Instantly, your mouth is on mine
Hot and hungry, anxious and intense
Hands through my hair

But then we're there
Drury Lane Theatre
Dinner and a show?

We go in, eat food
Same old, same old
Boring part of the night

You take my hand again
Walk me into the theatre
I swell with joy

Orchestra, joy of joys!
We sit in the front
I see the horns

And the lights dim
The familiar tune
My favourite composer

But I wake up.

All Because of My Bruised Ego

I feel stupid to say it
These words are demons
Tantalizing my opinions
Of you and all around you

And her lyrics play in my head
Why don't you want it
As badly as I do?
Why don't you need it
Like me?

By the Goddess, this hurts
And these words are rebelling
Taunting my thoughts
Of you and all about you

And her lyrics soar in my head
Why don't you need me
As badly as I need you?
Why don't you want it
Like me?

I hold back these tears
And laugh through the pain
I want it
I do, I do

And her lyrics play in my head
Why don't you need it
As I do?
Why don't you want me
Like I want you?

Because in Reality, We Hate Each Other

In all actuality, the word family
Means nothing in this house
We fight
We scream
And I cry

I'm not your daughter
I'm not your child
You're glad that I'm not

I'm not loved by you
You hate me more
You're glad that I cry

I'm a bitch
I'm an asshole
You want me to die

Watch me.

Gray

Her eyes were gray
And her hair was brown
As ordinary as it gets
Day by day
Day by day

Walking solitarily down the halls
Holding her books to her chest
Hunched over, eyes downcast
Day by day
By and by

She longs for the moonlight
To take her away
To carry her farther and farther
An escape to the Fae
An escape from mundane

Her eyes are gray
Her hair is brown
She's looking down

For Those Who Need It

It sickens me
Hearing those same words
Over and over and over
Oh, blast it all
I cannot bear it again

The same story
The same heartbreak
The same hurt

I am ready
Loaded with hugs,
Pep talks, and ice cream

Bring. It. On.

Euphoria

I let myself fall
I jump over the edge
The one I promised myself
I wouldn't go to

Stupid girl, stupid girl
Your innocence constricts you
And those beautiful words
Float out of your mouth

The wind pushes my hair back
As I drop to euphoria beyond
My wildest of imaginations
And I'm loving every second

Stupid girl, stupid girl
Your innocence constricts you
And those beautiful words
Float out of your lips

I can see the bottom
No, not this, this is all wrong
The dream is a nightmare
Black and intimidating

Stupid girl, stupid girl
Your innocence constricts you
And those beautiful words
Float out of your mouth