Alter Ego

Do you really wanna know?
Well, then I can't wait to show you, baby
I guess that you could say
I have an alter ego

Inside I'm locked up in a shell
Waiting to get through this hell that I'm in
I guess you'd say I'm doing well
But I'm not

So here it is
What are you waiting for?

What do you want me to say?
I am not okay and I'm done
Making promises that I can't keep
And striving for the moon,
But I can't reach
What else can I do?
Follow every single rule?
I'm tired of the same old plot
I may look happy, but I'm not
What do you want me to say?

Can you see how I play
This little game you're falling for?
Sometimes I even think my
Name is a lie

'Cuz the real me isn't here
I'm not as strong as you believe, my dear
I'm really scared of my
Hundreds of fears

So here it is
No more make-believe

What do you want me to say?
I'm not okay and I'm done
Making promises that I can't keep
And reaching for the moon
Before I fall asleep
What else can I do?
Follow every single rule?
I'm tired of the same old plot
I may look happy, but I'm not
What do you want me to say?

Do you really wanna know?
Well, then I can't wait to show you, baby
I guess that you could say
I have an alter ego

I guess that you could say
I have an alter ego

What do you want me to say?
I'm not okay and I'm done
Making promises that I can't keep
And dreaming the unreal before
I fall asleep
What else can I do?
Follow every single rule?
I'm tired of the same old plot
I may look happy but I'm not
What do you want me to say?

Crashing Down On Me

What are you doing
Sitting in that chair?
What are you doing
With that blonde in your hair?
What are you doing
Crushing on that boy?
What are you doing?
Is this all a ploy?

I say time to move on

You're not worth it
You'll never be perfect
Everything you've worked for
Is crashing down
You've gotta be kidding
No way you'll be winning
You're living a lie
Trying to hide
Living a lie
Can't decide

What are you doing
Editting those pics?
What are you doing
Chasing guys who act like dicks?
What are you doing
Pretending to be strong?
What are you doing?
Don't you know you're wrong?

I say, I say, move on

You're not worth it
You'll never be perfect
Everything you've worked for
Is crashing down
You've gotta be kidding
No way you'll be winning
You're living a lie
Trying to hide
Living a lie
Can't decide

What are you doing
Playing that part?
What are you doing
As they're breaking your heart?

You're not worth it
You'll never be perfect
Everything you've worked for
Is crashing down
You've gotta be kidding
No way you'll be winning
You're living a lie
Trying to hide
Living a lie
Can't decide

Tinfoil Is Worth More Than Gold To Me

It was a burst
Of confidence
I asked the question
And you smiled the
Way I knew you would

So why do I want
What I can't have?
I got my knight
In shining armor
What do I want?

I finally found the one
Who'll treat me like a princess
So why do I want
An asshole in tinfoil?
He broke me down
And fooled around
But he's everything
I've needed and more
So why isn't he at my door?

It was a small smile
Playing on my lips
Tapping rhythms with my
Fingertips
We could be happy

You treat me like
I matter but I
Don't feel that rush
And he knows how
To turn me on

I finally found the one
Who'll treat me like a princess
So why do I want
The asshole in tinfoil?
He broke me down
And fooled around
But he's everything
I've needed and more
Why isn't he at my door?

I wanna fall in love
And I want him to be mine
I can't believe how they
Both messed up my mind

I just can't decide how
Far I'm willing to go
For the one I'm with
And the one I want to know

I finally found the one
Who'll treat me like a princess
So why do I still want
The asshole in tinfoil?
He broke me down
And fooled around
You won't let me down
Or break me down
Both everything I need and more
Only one is at my door

Author's Note: Tinfoil is no longer more worthy. Just saying. XD

Can't Tell

I don't know what
You see in me and
I don't care if you're
Texting me
But I can't deal
With being led on

I can't tell if
You're really there
And I don't know
If you're playing fair
What's the deal
With you?

One minute you're hitting on me
The next second, we're both screaming
I can't say that I don't love
Being on your mind but
I don't think I can take it
When you leave me behind
One day, we're like best friends
Next day, we're at a dead end
I love it when you act
As if you care
But I can't tell
If you're really there

I don't think of
Anyone else
Because you're
Always on my mind
I wonder if
It's reciprocated

I can't see what you want

One minute, you're hitting on me
The next second, we're both screaming
I can't say I don't love
Being on your mind
But I can't be there to take it
When I'm left behind
One day, we're like best friends
Next day, we're at a dead end
I love it when you act
As if you care
But I don't know
If you're really there

One more night, one more night
I can see it like it's real
But, but; but, but
I can't see what you want

One minute, you're hitting on me
Next second, we're both screaming
I can't say I don't love
Being on your mind
But I can't handle
Being left behind
One day, we're like best friends
The next day, we're at a dead end
I love it when you act
As if you care
But I can't see if
You're really there

Author's Note: Written a while ago. Like. A month. XD

What Did You See?

It's getting late
I'm sitting here
Wondering why the fuck
I did it again
I'm sick of this
I've had enough
I'm tired of the games

So let's see it
Tell me what did you mean
I swear to Goddess
I'm not what I seem

I started out just a little
Bit happier than usual
But you brought me down
Go figure, no wonder I'm
Falling apart, and you
Wonder why I hate myself
Funny how one word
Was all that it took
To kick me down to the ground
And I'm really getting sick
Of this game you're playing
So count me out

It's getting cold
I'm spacing out
Thinkin' 'bout why I
Feel more alone
I'm feeling bad
I wanna go
To a place just
To be on my own

Let's see it, tell me
What do you mean?
I'm not who you see

I started out just a little
Bit happier than usual
But you brought me down
Go figure, no wonder I'm
Falling apart and you wonder
Why I hate myself
Funny how one word was all
That it took to kick me down
To the ground and I'm really
Getting sick of this game you're playing
So count me out

I'm done shooting for the moon
'Cuz when I miss, I'm not in the stars

I started out just a little bit
Happier than usual
But you brought me down
Go figure, no wonder I'm
Falling apart and you
Wonder why I hate myself
Funny how one word was all
That it took to kick me down
To the ground and I'm really
Getting sick of this game
So count me out