Song for xXXx

I should’ve learned my lesson
By now and put up my defenses
‘Cuz by opening barely healed
Wounds the cut gets so much
Deeper

I should’ve stopped the hoping
By now, I know good things
Won’t come for those who wait

It’s hard to think that I was liked
For who I am, and harder still to
Think that I was stupid enough to
Believe

I should’ve learned my lesson
By now and put up my defenses
‘Cuz by opening these unhealed
Wounds the cuts, they get all the
Deeper

I should’ve stopped the hoping
By now ‘cuz good things don’t
Come to those who wait

One Day

One day, I’m finally going to lose it.
The walls will shatter to the ground
And smash my soul into dust.
Everything will turn to nothing.
The only escape will be the shadows.
And no one, no one in the whole world,
Will shed a single tear.
I can’t say I blame them.
I wouldn’t be crying, either.
One day, when love turns to hate
Time will cease to move for me.
Everything will finally be okay.
Not only for me, but for everyone
Else.

Isn’t that what’s important?

Author's Note: I no longer feel this way. No worries, be happy. Just thought this was well written. =)

My Wish

I wished on a star last night
Don’t know if it’ll come true
Wanna know what I wished?
I wished for a happiness unlike any other
Happiness unexplainable, but that
I’m going to try and explain anyway
It’s like waking up to a new day that’s
Just perfect
Not too hot, yet gorgeous
With a cool breeze
Or it could be a happiness like hearing
Music so beautiful, it feels like you could
Melt into it or sing along
Do you get what I mean?
Because you know what would make me
So very happy like that?
You.

They'd Kill To See Her Fall

She holds her head up high
‘Cause the world would kill
To see her fall
And she wants to feel alive
But can’t find a way at all
And on the inside, she’s
Ripping herself apart
Trying to claw her way through
The agony, misery
Alone in a broken world, no
One can, or will, help her find
Her way to the light
She’s fragile, breakable
Beautiful.
But everyone wants to prove
Her wrong…

Miracles

It’s safe to say that she’s
Given up on miracles,
Wishing stars and 11:11
Because no matter how hard
She tries, she’s never gotten
That happy ending, not even
For a moment
And it’s sad to think that a
Girl so beautiful and caring
Was not ever given a chance

It’s a battle that she’s never
Winning
It’s the last mile, but she’s done
Giving
She’s lost her faith in humanity
‘Cause they’ve never proved her
Wrong
And she’s done with being strong

Why push so hard when the wall
Is unbreakable to you, and you’re
Alone?
Everyone permeates through it
But you can’t get in, not even
If you pretend to be them
It’s sad that someone who’d
Give her life for anyone was
Never, ever loved

It’s a battle that she’s never
Winning
It’s the last mile, but she’s done giving
She’s lost her faith in humanity
‘Cause they’ve never proved her
Wrong
And she’s done with being strong

Make the World Jealous

It never really has worked out for me
I’d like to think that one of these days
It will
That I’ll find someone to love me
Unconditionally and indescribably
Every time I see him, my heart starts
To pound against my chest
And I want to curl up into his arms
They just look so inviting
He’s amazing
And I wish he loved me back
Because together, we could
Make the entire world jealous

My Addiction

It cracks me open, pummels me
Into the earth, rips me to shreds,
Destroys my sanity, beats me to
A pulp and leaves me broken
And crying. But I, being the idiot
I am, keep going back.
Back to my love drunken,
Heart-breaking, earth-shattering
Addiction.

And no matter what,
I can’t break it’s hold.

I swear, I’m addicted.