Want

A simple word
A desire for something
A longing for something
A lie

Every time
You said the word
I listened with
An open mind
And a glimmer
Of hope that only
You could smash
Into fragments
Of a memory

I watched you
Turn my days
To dreams
And my nights
To fairytales
Happily ever after
Didn't seem so
Far away

But you left
Took a step
Outside of what
We had
And wanted more
Than I was
Willing to give
Stepped into
The sunlight
And let your
True colours shine

And your want was
All I wanted
But what you wanted
Was more than I
Wanted to give

To Drown

Taking the breath
From my lungs
Leaving me to drown
In a pool of loneliness
Watching my struggle
Against myself

I'm unbeautiful
I'm forgetful
I'm impatient
Sarcastic
Tempermental

But I'm loving
I'm lonely
I need you
Come back to me

Wearing my heart
On my sleeve
Letting go of
One last silver tear
Crying out your
Beautiful, sweet name

Simple Recognition

"Take me away from here."
She whispered sweet nothings
Into deaf ears
And let a tragedy of love songs
Be created from her words

"Love me for forever."
He whispered, but soon the
Days turned into nevers
And the beautiful chaos
Turned to shattered glass

"Please, don't go."
She screamed into the night
Of teardrops and powdered snow
Composing a concerto for
A tortured heart

He was silent
An opener for
Words to come

She was silent
Simple recognition
Of a familiar ending

"Let me leave you."
He finally whispered, although
Her pain was more than he knew
Ripping past beauties
Into midnight shreds

"Take me away from here."
She whispered sweet nothings
Into deaf ears
And created a glorious tragedy
From destructive words

Simply Mesmerizing: One Year Down

Hello there. Zia here. It's time for my annual recap on the year. Gotta keep my songs straight somehow. ;)

This year proved to be the most challenging one out of all of them. I feel as though I've gone on a journey of self-exploration, and came back thinking, "Wow! Let's go again and see what else I can discover!"

Throughout the relationships, heartbreaks, drama, and disasters, all I could focus on was surviving. But now, a year later, I can look back and think, "Holy shit, that was an amazing year." I've never had such a great, rollercoaster ride kinda year before. And quite honestly, I feel as though I've never been more sure of who I am.

Mello SL.
French hornist.
Author.
Poet.
Lyricist.
Friend.
Lover.
Daughter.
Student.

There are so many things in this world that I can't even begin to imagine. It makes me realize how everything is interconnected, how we all play a part in this crazy play we call life.

This year, I intend on not only defining hurt, but in defining love. In finding Zia. There's something more to this world than what meets my eyes. And regardless of how I get there, I will make this year one to be remembered.

Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less than, less than perfect."

Get out there. Define hurt.
<3 Zia

Suspended Song

Lost again
Lost again
Singing a song
That I should've long
Forgotten
That I had forgotten
That I never should
Ask for
Again

But, oh, I'm singing
I have the chords memorized
Every touch is my melody
And passionate kisses, the rhythm
Your eyes are the harmony
And our love, a suspension

Can't find a way
Back into
What we had
So long ago
My way is blocked
And I'm trapped
In a world
Empty of the
Sweetest sound
That I will never
Hear again

Oh, I'm singing
I have the chords memorized
Every touch is my melody
And passionate kisses, the rhythm
Your eyes are the harmony
And our love, a suspension

Riverbend

Find it on the edge
Of what should have been
Something, anything
Other than this rushing
River of torment
And watch me
Cast it to the ripples
And walk away
As it is carried
Onto what I hope
Will never again
Be a riverbend
Of my emotions

Edge of Control

---- 6-5-11

Comfortable silence
Oh, the things I never
Said, I never said are
Running back and forth
Through my head, oh whoa

Long moments wasted
Oh, the minutes dropping
Down like grains of sand
Breaking out from all
Of my plans

Out of my hands

Everything you said
Lying in front of me
And everything gone
All the things I believed
What more can you ask,
Can you take from me
When you're in control?
Have you finally broke
Down and lost your mind?
Or this just everything
You wanted to find?
Can't you see every cruel
Thing you've done to me?
I've lost it all to
The edge of control

Forgotten places
Oh, the memories I
Tried to leave alone
Are aiming to take
Over, oh whoa

Second forever
Oh, the silver medal
Never takes the gold
And you cry out
From your soul

Out from your soul

Everything you said
Lying in front of me
And everything's gone
All the things I believed
What more can you ask,
Can you take from me
When you're in control?
Have you finally broke
Down and lost your mind?
Or she just everything
You wanted to find?
Can't you see every cruel
Thing you've done to me?
I've lost it all
To the edge of control

Everything, everything
That you said to me
And everything shattered
All that I could believe
What more do you want,
Do you want from me?
It's out of my hands

Everything you said
Lying in front of me
And everything gone,
All the things I believed
What more can you ask,
Can you take from me
When you're in control?
Have you finally broke down
And lost your mind?
Or is this just everything
You wanted to find?
Can't you see every cruel
Thing you've done to me?
I've lost it all
To the edge of control