I Deserve It

You deserve to be shot

I get it
I'm a bitch
I can accept that
But no way in hell
Do I deserve to be shot

Or do I?

Am I really that bad of a person?
Am I really that inconsiderate?

You say you're like me
Lies
You say you're a cutter
Then why do my words offend?

I'm not an idiot
I know what game you're playing
And trust me, you're fighting the fire
I can play this five million times better
I know my way around the block

I'm not a druggie, like you
I'm not a slut, like you
I'm not an idiot, like you

Don't you dare judge me
You don't fucking know me
I'm not what you first see
There's a different side of
This story

And I sure as hell could
Read it to you before your
Bedtime, little girl.

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Best Friends Forever

What a lie
What a stupid cliche
I need to stop being stupid

You're never going to be
Her number one
You rank farther down than
The rest of her friends

Stop this madness
Stop being an idiot

The voices scream to me
I hide from them, yelling
"No, no, not her! She
Won't leave me now!"

But in the end, the voices win.
I'm losing her.
I know I am.
It hurts.

I have no one else.
I don't know what to do.

I'm losing everyone.
Even the people I thought
Were my best friends.

What a lie.
What a stupid cliche.
You'll never be good enough.

Gah.

I'm sick of it ending
Like this
It hurts
I cry
Why can't they help?
I hate the pain
I hate the sores
Oh, it kills
I hate this

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Stupid Girl: A Self-Portrait

Get shrugged off one more time
Tell the world you'll be fine
When he breaks your heart
Can't find the strength to restart

Stupid girl
Wipe your eyes
It's your fault
You believe his lies
Oh, it hurts
But you're so naive
Run back to him
'Cuz you believe
Stupid girl
Don't believe in love

Let him break you one more time
Tell your friends you'll be fine
All he does is hurt you
But you believe the lies are true

Stupid girl
Wipe your eyes
It's your fault
You believed his lies
Oh, it hurts
But you're so naive
Run back to him
'Cuz you believe
Stupid girl
Don't believe in love

Estrella

Flow forth from the heavens
Oh, tears of sorrow
Drop from the sky
And caress the lonely

Drown all the dreams
Oh, tears of sorrow
Fall to the earth
And sustain the need

Can't stop this feeling
Can't stop this needing
Oh, no
Can't stop this feeling
Can't stop the needing

Watch as the Angel of Death
Falls from grace
A blood-red river flows at a
Daring pace
Hope's pale cream nails leave
The scars on her face
Give her a reason for running
This race

Flow forth from the heavens
Oh, tears of sorrow
Drop from the sky
And caress the lonely

Can't stop this feeling
Can't stop this needing

Watch as the Angel of Death
Falls from grace
A blood-red river flows at a
Daring pace
Hope's pale cream nails leave
The scars on her face
Give her a reason for running
This race

zzZZZ

It's a snowfall
Fading into the eart
Dropping a star from
The heavens
Holding a crystal in
Her hands
It's falling
Leaving us after we're
Graced with
It's presence
Don't leave me
Don't leave me

Stop It, Baby

Stop it, baby
You can't take this hurt
Anymore
You know he's all you want
You know he's what you need
But don't go there
Don't do it
He's not worth the tears

Stop it, baby
Your heart can't handle this
Pain
I know you love him
I know he's what your heart craves
But don't go there
Don't do this
He's not worth your heartache

Stop it, baby
Your heart can't deal with these
Sores
Everyone knows you need him
We know your music's for him
But don't go there
Don't do it
He's not worth your love