Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Dear Future Self

Dear Zia,

I'm very proud of you.
You made it inot UCLA, or DePaul, or Wesleyan, right?
And you became a physically fit person?
I hope the mello freshie respected you.
And I really hope you made ISU.
I know how hard you worked to get there.
How are your horn chops?
I remember how difficult it was to gain lip endurance, but I know you worked really hard for it.
And you better gave made high honor roll your senior year.
I know you wanted it, Zi.

Don't forget those people who helped you out along the way, okay?

Madeline
Autumn
Anna
Andrea
Kathy
Cara
Grant
Kevin
Katie
Dee
Jenny
Holly
Jack
All of those exes
Well, you have a few now, right?

These people made you who you are.
Especially your mom. Don't forget her. She will always be your best friend.
And don't let a boy break you.
Make me proud, babygirl.
I love you!

With much pride,
Zia Sampson

Never Need You Again

Broken down by you
Picked up by you
And broken down once more

And yet I'm standing here today
Saying I'm better off without you

I guess I should also say
I'm damn proud of who I've become

I'm working to make high honor roll
I'm a first chair musician as a sophomore
I'm a section leader
I workout not because I'm obligated
But because it makes me happy
I'm starting to believe in my own beauty
I have friends and now know who to trust

The ones I've fought with
The ones who I left
The ones who are back
I have people here to lift me up

I have people who call me attractive
Who want me
People who aren't afraid to say it

Yeah, you broke me
But the girl you left
Isn't who she was
You made me so much stronger
And I will never need
A boy again

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Dreamer's Lullaby

Chapter 1, Part 2:

Alex looked into grey eyes. They alnmost mirrored his own, but they were always darker. Always deeper.
It had occured to him that Abrielle was like the weather. Some days, calm and more beautiful than the cloudless sky. Others, more violent than a raging hurricane. Needless to say, he had seen her like a thunderstorm on most occassions.
"Abrielle, you know I trust you," he quietly said, trying to soothe her. "I'm just lost without my Maria."
She sighed. Her expression shifted from irritation to calm in an instant.
"Alex, she is gone. She will never be the same girl you knew. Can't you see that? Once you join Darien, you don't come back!"
The last phrase was a whisper, mostly furious, but with a hint of remorse. The air around them grew icy cold when Darien's name was spoken. The whooshing of the trees startled Alex, and he found himself drawing closer to Abrielle unintentionally.
"Abrielle," he whispered. "Abrielle, I don't like this." There was a hint of panic in his voice.
Her eyes were darker than ever. "Lilai!" she called.
All movement stopped in the forest. Not another sound was heard.

Dreamer's Lullaby

Author's Note:

This will be a story written in short series format. I will add more as I go. XD

Chapter One, Part One: Abrielle

He was restless, pacing back and forth between the trees. Tired, grey eyes shifted from one side of the forest to the other. Checking his watch, he realized that she was late again.
It was dark on that August night. Half of the beautiful full moon was covered by clouds, with specks of light illuminating the black sky. The light wind whispered sweet, soothing promises in his ear, but he shook his head. This was the end.
"Alex."
He froze, temporarily in a state of paranoia. Where was she? Why did she want to meet him in Temperance Forest at midnight?
"I told you I'd be here."
"But," he stammered, "but why tonight? What's going on?"
She was still out of sight. Her voice was hidden by trees, but so rich and musical, a song was created by her words.
"Alex, you needed me. I could tell. I felt the pounding of your heart that night."
Maria. The voice was an echo of the past. His heart was ripped in two, his mind darkened by the pain. She was the world. Her eyes were the ocean, her hair was the earth beneath him. When she left, that ground split apart and surrendered him to the molten lava of his mind.
"No," he lied. "I can survive."
As soon as he had said the words, he knew that they were wrong. A howl erupted from the forest, sending a shiver through Alex's body.
"You dare lie to me?"
He trembled, and his eyes were cast upon the ground. More so than ever, he regretted allowing Abrielle into his life. Into his mind, thoughts, dreams, spirit. Into him.
Each of the stars seemed to brighten ever so slight. Alex knew she would show herself to him.
"No."
She was there. Abrielle, fallen angel. Abrielle, guardian of the Temperance Forest. Abrielle, protector of the Forgotten Realm.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Another Picture

--- 3-22-11

You said, "Baby, I really love you
I'll do anything
I promise I'm forever yours."
But now you snatched it up
Took it and left me tears to sting
Now I'm crying behind closed doors

I miss the days when "I love you"
Meant something in your eyes
'Cuz leaving me's the opposite
But I guess that I really
Shouldn't be so surprised
They always leave me anyways

You promised to be
My knight in shining armor
And to save me from myself
Now we've come to a close
And I'm just another
Picture on your shelf

Every couple goes through
Phases they just can't escape
And I knew that this was ours
My friends have told me they've
Been through it, it's a twist of fate
And if we try we can go far

Am I just stupid for believing
In these fairytales?
My daydreams help to keep me strong
You told me we'd give it a week
And I believed your words
But now I know that I was wrong

You promised to be
My knight in shining armor
And to save me from myself
Now we've come to a close
And I'm just another
Picture on your shelf

You said, "Baby, I'm sorry
But you'll be okay
It won't hurt for very long."
I told that I'd give your
Hoodie back and I loved you
Then when the phone clicked, you were gone

Author's Note: This was by far the most difficult song for me to ever write. I began it during the day he broke up with me, as I felt the change in our relationship. I knew it would happen. Then the day after, I finished it. The melody is absolutely gorgeous, but it's so hard for me to sing. It's a painful song, but I truly love it.

Kisses In The Rain

--- 3-22-11
I feel a decade older
Can't sleep at night
You don't hold me tight
I feel a millenium colder
It's an icy storm
No one keeps me warm

Oh, only a little bit longer
If I close my eyes
This can disappear
Oh, I told you, you were stronger
All I do is cry
'Cuz I want you here
I guess you're moving on
When I blink, you'll be long gone

I won't forget the way you
Promised you loved me, too
The way your eyes look when you smile
And the way you kissed me, baby
The night when it kept raining
It was every girl's wildest dream
It meant the world and more to me

It's just another upset
Every other night
It's another fight
I feel the need to confess
When I'm not close to fine
You can make me shine

Oh, this is all my problem
Without you here
The sun's dark, my dear
Oh, I can't blame you at all
You were an angel
And now, I'm nothing

I won't forget the way you
Promised you loved me, too
The way your eyes look when you smile
And the way you kissed me, baby
Outside when it kept raining
It was every girl's wildest dream
It meant the world and more
It meant the world and more to me

Author's Note: I started this on 3-16-11 because I really felt the break-up coming. When, I had no clue. But I finished it the day after...

Whispered Wishes

--- 3-16-11

Whispered wishes
One more time
Missing the past
The happy
The laughs
Sneaking a smile
One more time
Across the room
Baby, I miss you
And one more
Whispered wish
Escapes my lips
As I stare out
My window I
nto the night sky

Please don't leave me
One more time
To the moonlight
Whispered wishes
Stolen kisses
Please don't leave me