I Always Dreamed

Constantly reverting my attention
Is becoming a frustration
But I can't get my mind off of you

How can I even describe how I feel about you?
I went from being completely detached
To craving an emotional connection
And look at where I am now
Sitting in my dorm room, miles away
Yet still longing for your touch
All I can do is remember

What I would give
To nestle into your chest again
Tucked gingerly in your arms
Fingertips lazily running up and down my spine
Across my arms, down my thighs
The rise and fall of your torso
With every breath you take
Silken legs overlapping yours
My hands pressed against your body
It's well after midnight
And I am still wide awake

Eagerly rolling over to a side
Taunting you, teasing you into action
Moving to meet me
The sweetest kiss on my lips
And you pull me on top of you
My legs straddling that gorgeous body of yours
And my lips can't separate from yours
Until you move to my chest
Burying yourself in me

I can barely breathe already
How does this happen?
It never was like this before
You know exactly what to do for me
Eyes tracing my body then reverting back
Those beautiful blue eyes haunt me when you're gone

You touch me again, and I sigh
Your name is honey on my lips
But you keep yours on me as though my skin is sugar
You move to look down at me
Eager anticipation rippling down my spine
And that sexy smirk lining your delicious lips

Me and you
The movement is pulsing
And you do things to me unlike any other man
Air can't reach my lungs fast enough
Eyelids fluttering in ecstasy
Is this even possible?
No one else has ever-

I gasp again, I can't breathe
You've done it, you've done it!
No one else could ever prove themselves
And here you are, still gripping my hips
I cannot keep quiet
Not when you give me the sweetest torture

You're exhausted
My lips on you once more
The finale of your feat
An ending I long to see you to
I could never refuse you

Once we've had our share
It's back to that same lazy position
Me in your arms
Pressed against your warm chest
My legs entwined with yours
And tender kisses shared again

You light up a cigarette
Thick smoke filling the room
And I love the small talk
Comfortable closeness
Easily nuzzled against you
As the morning comes to meet us
The wear and tear of our adventures
Finally forcing us into the silence of sleep
And I stay wrapped in your arms
The way I always dreamed

Romance For The Records

Lips meeting metal
The rush of breath filling lungs
And the power of air overwhelming me

I play
Vibrations of the purest form
Against a taut silver mouthpiece

Hand pressed against nickel
The curve of her bell the most enticing vision
A sight of the most pure beauty

And I play her
Love her the way I could never love a man
She is my sweetest sin, my one passion

But I am wrong
It is never the right melody
Never will she and I create the perfect tone

They tell me I'm wrong
That this romance is one for the records
She and I can light up the night sky

Our sound is changing
And our love is being tested yet again
How long can I hold onto her?

Am I A Masochist?

Am I a masochist?
I adore the things that hurt me
The bite in every word against me
The pain in every rejection I get
Because of the hope
A chance that this loneliness will lead
To a love that I desperately desire

I'd let you rip me to pieces
If it meant that one day, you'd love me
All I ever want
And all I could ever need
Rests in your hands
The hands that never touch me
The smile that never lingers in my direction
The eyes that desperately avoid me
And the voice that whispers my name

I hear it
And it's destroying me from the inside out
How I ache with longing
For you, for you, for you
The idea of you and me
Because I can see it, damn it
They can see it
This is more than just a passing glance
This is an emotion
One that is tearing me apart
Killing me from the outside in

Four More Days

Breathless
Caught up in the same old daydream
That I am dying to make a reality
Your soft lips against my skin
The slightest flicker of your tongue
Against the warmth of my neck
Your teeth graze the surface
And I can't hold back

From wrapping my legs around your waist
Pulling your lips down to mine
And grasping your hair in my hands
Every sound you make drives me wild
Sending those lovely shivers down my spine
I writhe in ecstasy again and again
The most beautiful feeling

You do it again
Envelope yourself in the emotion
And I'm screaming your name
In hopes that you'll never stop
Never stop loving me the way you do
It's the best way you know how

My entire body aches
The sweetest pain I've ever felt
Muscles in my legs shaking
Weakly nuzzled into the curve of your arms
Those same soft lips against my forehead
And sugar-coated "I love you's" escape your lips

Shakes of laughter wrack your body
As I am pressed against your chest
And I respond in the same manner
That smile lighting up your face
And lighting up my world
How could I live without the passion?
How could I live without the friendship?

Venom In My Veins

The sighs and the sweetest breath
The heaving of your chest
I felt it
I hear it in my dreams

The wrong never felt so right
It's my body's favorite fight
My brain rips
My heart right at its seams

I try to say the words
But they cannot escape
And I can
Tell you how I feel, but
Boy, I just get so afraid
Of how

You take my breath away
With the things you do
And the words you say
I didn't think it'd hurt
To hear the way you
Remember her
And I need you to know
I'm terrified that
You'll let me go
And I don't want you
To leave me

The way that my body aches
For your eyes upon my face
It kills me
Brings the venom to my veins

And if you don't feel the same
If I'm just another name
Then don't tell me
Save me from the selfish pain

I can't believe that I
Could do this to myself
And I can't
Tell you that you're bringing me
Into the depths of hell
With how

You take my breath away
With the things you do
And the words you say
I didn't think it'd hurt
To hear the way you
Remember her
And I need you to know
I'm terrified that
You'll let me go
And I don't want you
To leave me

'Cause I can't
Explain it
All I can do is say it
And just hope that
You feel it
It's embarrassing to say
How much I don't want
You to go
And I want you to know
That I can't
Control it
Or stop myself

You take my breath away
With the things you do
And the words you say
I pretend it doesn't hurt
The way that you
Remember her
I'm begging you to know
I'm terrified
That you will go
And I don't want you
To leave me

I'm so scared that you'll leave me

Judgment

Watch me fervently
With eyes narrowed by jealousy
And swear that you're superior
To my inevitable character flaws

This won't be the first time
And it won't be the last
That accusing words will flow
From that intelligent mouth of yours
Looking down on me
From your golden pedestal

Pardon me for being who I am
And pardon me for enjoying myself
God save my soul from hell
Because my apparent sins
Will send me straight to Hell, right?

The Other Side

Everything I've ever done
I've done with the best intentions
Every rule I ever broke
Has been too rare to mention
I've been holding out so long
And made this love my own invention

Every heart I ever broke
I tried my best to mend
Every story that I've sang
Has always had its end
I'm tired of this fairytale
I want to stop playing pretend

But I can't
So I won't
Although this heart of mine
Is crying for the other side

Every time I look away
You're always there beside me
Every time I needed you
You're always there to guide me
I am begging for a sign
That things aren't always what they seem

Every second that I wait
I view as some days long
Every time I go to sleep
The dreams turn out so wrong
I know inside I am a fool
Though I try to act so strong

But I can't
So I won't
Although this heart of mine
Is crying for the other side