Sunday, October 31, 2010

Guard

When you're too stupid
To stop believing
You know you've gone
Over the deep edge
I've given it everything
I possibly could
Trying for this is like
Jumping into flames
Stupid girl, why do you
Keep letting your guard down?

You should know the ending
By now
It's happened so many times
That it should come by naturally
It's just a stupid fairytale
Why don't you learn to
Guard what you need?

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Logistically Impaired

Maybe there's a reason
It's all not working out
Maybe there's a reason
As to why I can't get it
I guess there is a reason
Why I've been alone
I guess there's a reason
Why

Who said love equals logic?
Who said there's an answer?
I say that hope is enough for me
I say, I say
Who said that fairytales are falsities?
Who said it's wishful thinking?
I say that you are worth my hoping
I say, I say

Maybe there's an equation
To solve this puzzle of love
Maybe there's a hint
Or a clue for me
I think there's a reason
I'm losing this game
There must be a reason
Why

But who said love equals logic?
Who said there's an answer?
I say that hope is enough for me
I say, I say
Who said that fairytales are falsities?
Who gave up on wishful thinking?
I say that you are worth every daydream
I say, I say

This answer
Doesn't need reasons
This answer
Cannot be solved
This answer
Is never proved
This answer
Was worth it all

So who said that love equals logic?
Who said, who said?
Who said that love needed answers?
Who said, who said?

So who said that love equals logic?
Who said there's an answer?
I say that hope is enough for me
I say, I say
Who said that fairytales are falsities?
Who gave up on wishful thinking?
Who said that love equals logic?
Not me, not me

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

I Hate Decisions

So what do you do
When you can't decide
Between two things,
Reality and fantasy?

Between the one who
Treats you like a princess,
Holds you how you've
Dreamt of being held,
And tries to make you smile
Or the one who
You've fallen in love with,
Who is oblivious to your adoration,
But acts like your invisible?

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Say Good-bye

What happened, baby?
When did I disappear?
It's like I'm invisible
To you and all around you
What happened, baby?
Since when do I not exist?
What happened, baby?
Oh...

I miss the way we were
When you wouldn't even
Glance at her
And we were inseperable
Now it's like it never happened
I can't keep doing this
Can't I jut get a good-bye kiss?
'Cuz if you're leaving me
At least say good-bye

What happened, baby?
When did you forget that I'm alive?
It's like I'm living a nightmare and
I want a daydream
What happened, baby?
Since when am I the lesser girl?
What happened, baby?
Oh...

I miss the way we were
When you wouldn't even
Glance at her
And we were inseperable
Now it's like it never happened
I can't keep doing this
Can I at least get a good-bye kiss?
'Cuz if you're leaving me
At least say good-bye

When did we lose it?
What did I do?
Why don't you miss me
Like I miss you?

What was the problem?
What did I do?
Why don't I matter?
What did I do?

I miss the way we were
When you wouldn't even
Glance at her
And we were so close
Now it's like it never happened
I can't keep doing this
Can I at least get a good-bye kiss?
'Cuz if you're leaving me
And I know you're leaving me
When you leave me
At least say good-bye

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Intoxicating

Have I told you lately
That I love you?
Do you know that I can't
Breathe when you're with her?
Did you guess that you'd
Forget me?
Have I shown you enough?

Have I told you lately
That I'm hurting?
Do you know that you're
Leaving me in the dust?
Did you guess that I'd be
Here crying?
Have I stood here enough?

Standing in the dark
And crying to the moon
Wasting away
Can't carry through
This love is so intoxicating
And I don't know what to do
Underneath the lights
Playing from my soul
Drifting away
Feel so alone
This love is so invisible
To you

Have I mentioned lately that
I miss you?
Do you remember how it
Used to be?
Did you guess that I'd be here
Forgetting?
Have I taken enough?

Standing in the dark
And crying to the moon
Wasting away
Can't carry through
This love is so intoxicating
Underneath the lights
Playing from my soul
Drifting away
Feel so alone
This love is so invisible
To you

Standing in the dark
Crying to the moon
Wasting away
Can't carry through
This love is so intoxicating

Standing in the dark
And crying to the moon
Wasting away
Can't carry through
This love is so intoxicating
Underneath the lights
Playing from my soul
Drifting away
Feel so alone
This love is so invisible
To you

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Off the Stage

Why couldn't I do it?
Why couldn't I prevail?
I messed up again
Proved myself to
Do nothing but fail
And I'm not beautiful
I'm ugly and fat and
Incapable.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Only One Week Left

Open your eyes
Can't you see what you've done?
You've changed me
You've helped me see
All that I can be
You've proven to me
What my ability is

Open your eyes
Can't you see what you do?
You've changed me
You've helped me learn
What it means to fall
You've shown me
What my heart can do

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Simply As Such

Hi there. It's been almost a year since I started this blog, so I felt I should recap on how the year went.

Last year was filled with beginnings, endings, and awakenings. I learned a lot about myself. I discovered what type of person I want to be, what I want to do with my life, what my music means to me. I learned what my writing meant to me. The style has changed a bit since Define Hurt, but it's still me. This is who I am. It's something to commend me for.

So for this year, I want to make my music better, more prominent. I want my lyrics to have guitar parts and such. I know impossible things can happen.

"But because these daft and dewy-eyed dopes keep building up impossible hopes, impossible things are happening every day." -Cinderella.

I wanna believe in something more than what's happened to me in the past. I wanna fall in love and be happy and find out more about this life.

I know life's a roller coaster. Guess I just have to hang on for the ride.

Simply as such.

Cry, Baby, Cry

So today I finally cried
I faded into the background
Like elevator music
Except sadder, a little bit darker

Today I finally broke
I shattered into pieces
Like a mirror
Except blacker, a little deeper

Once in a while
It's too hard to breathe
Cry, baby, cry
It'll make it all better
The wind whispers in my ear
"I'll save you, I promise"
But the promise is always
Broken

Today I finally cracked
I ripped from the inside out
Like an egg
Except more fragile, a little less alive

Today I wept
I sobbed for the past
Like a child
Except less innocent, more exposed

Once in a while
It's too hard to breathe
Cry, baby, cry
It'll make it all better
The wind whispers in my ear
"I'll save you, I promise"
But it's always broken

Once in a while
I forget to breathe
I gotta cry, baby, cry
To just make it all better
The wind whispers to me
"I can save you, I promise"
But it was broken

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

One Last Time

One more star
Is erupting in the sky
One more midnight
Is approaching

Whether you see it
Or not
I'll always be here
Whether you remember
Or not
My heart will still sing
Whether you loved me
Or not
I'll always be here somehow

One more method
To my madness
One more tear
To my collection

One more story
In my library
One more love song
In my head

Whether you see it
Or not
I'll always be here
Whether you remember
Or not
My heart will still sing
Whether you loved me
Or not
I'll always be there somehow

I'm crying
One more time
I'm singing
One more time
I'm living
One last time

Whether you see it
Or not
I'll always be here
Whether you remember
Or not
My heart will still sing
Whether you loved me
Or not
I'll be there somehow

-Author's Note: This was written for a few people. Interpret as you wish. If you want further details, email. Thanks. <3Zia-

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Misunderstanding

No, no, no
It's not what I want
I've felt it
I finally understand
It's been there all along
I've just been too blind to see
What I want
Has always been with me

Perfection is when
Your hand was in mine
When your arms were
Around me again
When you said
"I do love you"

So why is it not quite there?

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Just Another Night

I'm screaming
My head is throbbing
I can't see
I hurt
Just everywhere
Aches and pains
And heartbreak

I'm crying
My soul is weeping
I can't breathe
I sigh
Everything and anything
Is the same
And broken

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Absolute Frustration

Weathered down
Taking it in
Breathing it out
The truth is
The truth is...

I know it to be true
I know what this reality holds
I know that my satisfaction
Will never be reached

Why is the thunder more
Than the lightning?
Why is the tornado stronger
Than the hurricane?
What is the difference
Between pain and innocence?
Which one are you looking for?