Monday, March 18, 2013

Anticipation

--- 11-26-12

Nervous twittering
Butterflies flittering
How do I keep
My head on straight?

Anticipation
My nerves' central station
I can no longer
Just eagerly wait

My legs are shaking
The cool front is breaking
I'm not acting myself
As of late

Going so crazy
Vision gone hazy
With the thought of
A world we could create

Double Take

--- 11-26-12

Take a peek at
My heart
And where he ripped it
Apart

The memory lingers inside of me
I was crying, heart in hiding
Why'd you lie to me?


He's my favorite
Mistake
An angel masked by
The hate

How could you do what you did to me?
You were perfect, I'm not worth it
I will never be!


Look at me now
I can't pretend it doesn't eat me alive
Look at us now
Now we're so distant, it's a dream
It's a crime
What happened, how?
The world we knew, you spun its axis around!
Look at you now
Don't you see it? Look at you now!

You're a fake, a ridiculous deity!
I can't wait until the day
You leave my memories!

Superman

--- 11-20-12

Superman, come rescue me
A hero, just the thing I need
The villains hurt and capture me
If you help, I know they'll leave

Superman, I need you here
Your mantra, stating, "Never fear!"
Behind the cape, I see you clear
A man I know I could hold dear

Superman, come save the day
Everyone else can go away
Just let me be your Lois Lane
Fly to me, and please just stay

Distress

--- 11-20-12

Can you imagine my distrust
Of you when my dreams are turned to dust
By you
A future that you try to crush in two

And I can hear the words you say
For I know the stupid games you play
'Cuz I have seen so many act this way
Like you

It's not refined, undignified
Internalized by your design
Uncultured, like the muddy swine
Words you bind and patronize

My successes bring your hate
A distress that you create
I'm the best that I can be
My life springs your jealousy

I try to make it all okay
And try for you to see this thing my way
I try, but it's not gonna be okay
It's not gonna
It's not gonna
It's not gonna be

Okay, I've won, I've had it done
So run before you can confront
You're playing with a loaded gun
Shield your eyes before my sun!

My successes bring your hate
A distress that you create

Blood Rush

Poison
Your lips like venom on mine
Hunger
In every movement you made
Passion
I swear, it was a sign that
I was
The worst kind of crazed

And I
Threw myself into this
Chaos
Because the pain gets me high
And you
Carved your name into my soul
It was bliss
No other rush like this

Make me your punching bag and
Take everything I have
Anything to be strangled in your arms
My beautiful love of harm

Lovestruck
I lost my mind in the mix
Turmoil
Where have you been since the last
Time I
Lost myself in your sweet little fix
You've been running these tricks

Make me your punching bag and
Take everything I have
Anything to be strangled in your arms
My beautiful love of harm

Tell them that I was warned
When I'm bruised up and torn
Lying limp on the ground
Don't let me make a sound
Slit my throat, break my bones
Just don't leave me alone
You are all that I need
I've succumbed to my greed

Make me your punching bag and
Take everything I have
Anything to be strangled in your arms
My beautiful love of harm

It was bliss
No other rush like this...

Hell Fire

Pretty girl
With that curly long hair
And a wide smile
That hides down at
The ground as she walks

Sweet girl
With a hidden trap
And a secret instinct
That ensnares her
Every movement

Delicious poison
Hindering her dreams
And victimizing her
Future that longs
For brightness

And a beautiful blade
Aching for a kiss
Against taut skin
A blade that deserves
The flames of hell

Riddle Me Not

---- 11-20-12

Riddle me this
Or riddle me not
'Tis my time to shine
Or my time to rot
You open your mouth
And those words you have got
Ensnare me, trap me
Blast it- I'm caught!

Riddle me this
Or riddle me not
So many chances
I've taken a lot
And this is just one
More wonderful shot
Whether you tell me a riddle
Or riddle me not