Weathered Emotions

When do the raindrops fall?
In the morning when the robin calls?
Or at night, when the moon is high
And we sit outside, looking up at the sky?

When does the light shine bright?
In the afternoon instead of night?
Or over the early morning's dew
When I sing, 'I'm sorry, too'?

When does a heart shatter?
When the raindrops fall, pitter-patter?
Or when the sun shines over us all
Maybe that's when a heart will fall...

Evening Light

If you hear my voice in the evening light
Whispering to the darkened shadows
Don't mind it
I'll be staring off into the distance
Leaving unspoken words behind
'I'm broken and hurt and alone'
No hope shines through the stars
Glistening in the navy sky
When you hear my voice in the evening light

Reminiscing

Do you remember the days
When 'happy' was my middle name?
Do you remember the days
When I never hurt?
Do you remember the days
When we held conversations?
Do you remember the days
When I was actually okay?

Pretending

Sometimes things just come
To an end
I can't get my dream around
Every bend
And I'm sick of taking chances
Tired of missing every shot
Trying to find a storyline
I know I've forgot

Maybe I've lost everything
I thought I knew
Can't keep pretending that
I can keep up with you
I'm wearing a mask that
Makes me look stronger
Don't know if I can hold
On for much longer

Each and every day I'm
Clinging to this path
Just want to make all the
Good moments last
Can believe that I'm not
Good enough anymore
Insecurity is knocking
On my door

Maybe I've lost everything
I thought I knew
Can't keep pretending that
I can keep up with you
I'm wearing a mask that
Makes me look stronger
Don't know if I can
Hold on for much longer

Sometimes things just
Fall apart
Its getting so hard to
Follow my heart
Just another battle that
I have to face
Don't know how I
Can keep up this pace

Oh, it's getting harder
To make it through
Harder
To be with you
Tougher
To get a grip
Trying
Not to slip

Oh, I'm trying so hard
Not to slip!!

Maybe I've lost everything
I thought I knew
Can't keep pretending that
I can keep up with you
I'm wearing a mask that
Makes me look stronger
Don't know if I can hold
On for much longer

Sometimes things just fall
Apart
It's getting too hard to
Follow my heart
I don't think that I can
Push it until the end
Can't get my dream
Around every bend

Do You Mind?

Can we talk?
Do you mind?
There's something going on
But I can't find
The right answers

I need help
Do you mind?
There's something going on
But I can't find
Anyone who'll hear

Will you save me from
My problems?
I need an escape
Will you save me from
My issues?
I need you
Can you help me?
Can you help me?
'Cuz I'm alone

Do you hear
My problems?
There's something wrong
But I can't find
Anyone who'll listen

I want love
Do you mind?
There's something missing
But I can't pintpoint
What it would be

Will you save me from
My problems?
I need an escape
Will you save me from
My issues?
I need you
Can you help me?
Can you help me?
'Cuz I'm alone

Will you save me from
My problems?
Can you help me?
Can you help me?
'Cuz I'm alone

Happy

Give me one good reason
To keep believing in happy
Endings
Give me one good reason
To think that I deserve
Better than the crap I put
Up with
Give me one good reason
As to why I shouldn't let
People walk all over me
Give me one good reason
To keep trying to make
Everyone but myself
Happy

I Can Take It

I'll ask of you one good reason
To talk abot me like I don't exist
I think I deserve it, don't I?
I'm not a little kid anymore
Therefore I can take whatever you
Might want to throw at me
And trust me, I can probably throw
It right back at you, and you'll
Never know what hit you
So why not grow a pair and
Say it to my face?
I'm a big girl: I can take it

Hope or Stupidity

I'll admit it, that was
An atom bomb on my part
Oh well, sorry babe
Can't help who I like
And yeah, I'm brave
But I sure as hell don't
Know if it was
Hope or stupidity

Broken

Deep inside my soul you'll find
An aching pain; it's hard to
Explain how
Badly it hurts
Sometimes it even hurts
To breathe

'Cuz I'm broken
Fragile to the extreme
Burning
Unable to scream
Hard to ignore
This hurt, these sores
I'm broken

Once you reach the heart
Of me, and find my old memories
I will
Show you all my fears and
Pray that you won't tell

I'm broken
Fragile to the extreme
Burning
Unable to scream
Hard to ignore this
Hurt, these sores
I'm broken

Deep inside my soul you'll find
An aching pain
That I can't explain

I'm broken
Fragile to the extreme
Burning
Unable to scream
Hard to ignore this
Hurt, these sores
I'm broken

It's hard to explain...

It's Not Fair

Well, I never said I was
Happy and I never
Gave you my word
That I'd put on those
Fake smiles and
Pretend to be okay for
A while

So I'm sorry that I've got
Issues
I can't run from the truth:
Inside I'm bleedin' and
Broken and cryin' and
Dyin'
I can't hide the proof

The rain falls while the
Lightning flashes, thunder
Crashes, floods a smile
Breaks her heart and
Suffocates her
Slowly, slowly
She can't stop the blood
From pulsing through her
Veins and trailing down
While she's in pain
It's not fair
But the world doesn't care

I never promised that I
Would never be in pain
'Cuz by doing so I'd have
To be pyschic and baby
That's not my game

She never told you she
Loved you, so get the hell
Over it
Man up and grow a set
The rain is falling
Run inside: you're getting
Wet

The rain falls while
The lightning flashes,
Thunder crashes, floods
A smile, breaks her heart
And suffocates her
Slowly, slowly
She can't stop the blood
From pulsing through her
Veins and trailing down
While she's in pain
It's not fair
But the world doesn't care

I never said I was
Happy
And I'm sick of those
Fake smiles

The rain falls while
The lightning flashes,
Thunder crashes, floods
A smile, breaks her heart
And suffocates her
Slowly, slowly
She can't stop the blood
From pulsing through
Her veins and trailing
Down while she's in pain
It's not fair
But the world doesn't care

I never said I was happy
And I'm sick of those
Fake smiles...

Caught

I've been waiting on
The horizon, but the
View is still the same
And I'm sick of trying
To win a hopeless game
I'm through with giving
In to what I never wanted
Baby, I'm tired, so tired
Of being hated

The sun rises, then it sets
I'm like a dolphin in a net
Free only in mind, I want
To leave this world behind
But I can't escape fate

Rant/Poem: Get Over It

Stop staring at him
With your big blue eyes
He's got a girlfriend
And it's not you nor I
She's the center of his
World
You had your chance
Now get over it

My Heart

Break it.
Stomp it.
Smash it.
Hold it.
Nurture it.
Kill it.
Rip it.
Shred it.
Love it.

Your Arms II: A Different Setting

Leaning back against your knees
I stare at the gorey movement
You grumble slight, and I sigh
In response
I close my eyes
And pray that I won't break down
In front of you, no matter
How badly I long for those arms
To be mine

Your Arms

Curled up against your knees
Contently watching the scene
Listening to youe soft breathing
And low sighs
Shifting slightly, nuzzling into you
And you move for me
Comforting me and supporting
My back
By far the closest I'll get to
Being in your arms

Goddess

You are:
Msuic.
Breath.
Thoughts.
Dreams.
Songs.
Poems.
World.
Life.
Love.
Everything.
Thank you.

Tears

Tears fall from her eyes
Solashing down like rain
Breaking the silence
With broken sobs
A scream
A flash of light
She spills her soul
Into the puddle of tears
That pool on the
Icy ground

Me

Easily broken.
Hard to endure.
Fragile.
Strong.
Sad.
Happy.
In love, or like...
Beautiful.
Frightening.
Small.
Meek.
Unbending.
Breakable.
Harsh.
Caring.
Compassionate.
Me.

xXxXx

I'm not afraid of them
Knowing of this
I don't care about
The rumors
I just can't stand to
Bottle it up
So I'll give you my
Whole heart
But don't break it.
Or else.

Raindrops

Silvery like the moon
Harsh, stinging
Quickly falling
From the sky
Impaling the earth
Drip, drop
Drip, drop

What I Feel

Loathing.
Hatred.
Anxiety.
Nervousness.
Anger.
Sorrow.
Depression.
Remorse.
Uncertainty.
Happiness.
Glee.
Confidence.
Exhiliration.
Excitement.
Determination.
Love. <3

Dawn

At dusk, clouds cover the
Seemingly bright horizon
They then spiral into a mad
Storm and shower us with rain
The children cry as you pull away
From what you had lied about
And said you lived for
You could not deal with the pain
Of your own paranoid mind
Why push into territories
Where there is nothing to be
Uncovered, dug up?
Her past is not coming back
It's your own choice
But by tomorrow, you will regret
It, and I'll wake up to a new
Dawn

Drop Me A Letter

Drop me a letter
Attached to a star
Keep me forever
Love all my scars
I'm just so glad
That I've made it
This far, so drop
Me a letter attached
To a star

I Wrote Your Love Song

So I take it you don't trust me?
Well, I guess I'm used to it by now
Considering I wrote this love song
For you, there's no reason to
Be wary of me
I'm no threat to the two of you
I've got my own sights set
And they're nothing like your's

Black And White

Every day may seem like a new beginning
But to some, it may be the next day
Closer to Death's skeletal hand
Not everything, however, is black and white
Even though there are two sides to every
Fairytale ending
Without the separate sides, though,
Our world as we know it would
Collapse
Whether or not you accept these
Factors of everday life
Do not forget that they are there

Song for xXXx

I should’ve learned my lesson
By now and put up my defenses
‘Cuz by opening barely healed
Wounds the cut gets so much
Deeper

I should’ve stopped the hoping
By now, I know good things
Won’t come for those who wait

It’s hard to think that I was liked
For who I am, and harder still to
Think that I was stupid enough to
Believe

I should’ve learned my lesson
By now and put up my defenses
‘Cuz by opening these unhealed
Wounds the cuts, they get all the
Deeper

I should’ve stopped the hoping
By now ‘cuz good things don’t
Come to those who wait

One Day

One day, I’m finally going to lose it.
The walls will shatter to the ground
And smash my soul into dust.
Everything will turn to nothing.
The only escape will be the shadows.
And no one, no one in the whole world,
Will shed a single tear.
I can’t say I blame them.
I wouldn’t be crying, either.
One day, when love turns to hate
Time will cease to move for me.
Everything will finally be okay.
Not only for me, but for everyone
Else.

Isn’t that what’s important?

Author's Note: I no longer feel this way. No worries, be happy. Just thought this was well written. =)

My Wish

I wished on a star last night
Don’t know if it’ll come true
Wanna know what I wished?
I wished for a happiness unlike any other
Happiness unexplainable, but that
I’m going to try and explain anyway
It’s like waking up to a new day that’s
Just perfect
Not too hot, yet gorgeous
With a cool breeze
Or it could be a happiness like hearing
Music so beautiful, it feels like you could
Melt into it or sing along
Do you get what I mean?
Because you know what would make me
So very happy like that?
You.

They'd Kill To See Her Fall

She holds her head up high
‘Cause the world would kill
To see her fall
And she wants to feel alive
But can’t find a way at all
And on the inside, she’s
Ripping herself apart
Trying to claw her way through
The agony, misery
Alone in a broken world, no
One can, or will, help her find
Her way to the light
She’s fragile, breakable
Beautiful.
But everyone wants to prove
Her wrong…

Miracles

It’s safe to say that she’s
Given up on miracles,
Wishing stars and 11:11
Because no matter how hard
She tries, she’s never gotten
That happy ending, not even
For a moment
And it’s sad to think that a
Girl so beautiful and caring
Was not ever given a chance

It’s a battle that she’s never
Winning
It’s the last mile, but she’s done
Giving
She’s lost her faith in humanity
‘Cause they’ve never proved her
Wrong
And she’s done with being strong

Why push so hard when the wall
Is unbreakable to you, and you’re
Alone?
Everyone permeates through it
But you can’t get in, not even
If you pretend to be them
It’s sad that someone who’d
Give her life for anyone was
Never, ever loved

It’s a battle that she’s never
Winning
It’s the last mile, but she’s done giving
She’s lost her faith in humanity
‘Cause they’ve never proved her
Wrong
And she’s done with being strong

Make the World Jealous

It never really has worked out for me
I’d like to think that one of these days
It will
That I’ll find someone to love me
Unconditionally and indescribably
Every time I see him, my heart starts
To pound against my chest
And I want to curl up into his arms
They just look so inviting
He’s amazing
And I wish he loved me back
Because together, we could
Make the entire world jealous

My Addiction

It cracks me open, pummels me
Into the earth, rips me to shreds,
Destroys my sanity, beats me to
A pulp and leaves me broken
And crying. But I, being the idiot
I am, keep going back.
Back to my love drunken,
Heart-breaking, earth-shattering
Addiction.

And no matter what,
I can’t break it’s hold.

I swear, I’m addicted.