Sunday, February 28, 2010

Arisen

Disaster is the name of the game

Pulling away from neverending pain

Hungry like the wolf

It can't help but engulf us in flames



Lies tend to hold an inch of truth

Even though they're not reliable proof

They tell us of the ones

Who lie, we pick them out like sleuths



A smile is a mask, is it not?

Because we all know behind it

Is a lot

Fear is arising

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Blessed Be

Rip me into infinity
For these foresaken eyes
Wish to see no longer
The charade is over
Beata sint

Sing to the cosmos
Of usual despair
The masks come off
The walls break down
An end of a game

Jealousy erupts from a pit
Darkening in the night sky
Leaving the fantasies
Fairytales
Mysteries
A series of unfortunate events

What's that?
What about me being
An unbeautiful disaster?

Oh, right
No one cares

Rip me into infinity
For these foresaken eyes
Wish to see no longer
The charade is over
Beata sint

Friday, February 26, 2010

Oceanos

Devorarme
Este es el golpe final
Siempre y siempre es una mentira
No puedo creer que me quedo de nuevo
Siempre y siempre es una
Mentira

Olvidese de lo que dijo
La mentira es siempre mentira
El pasado es el pasado
Se que debo seguir adelante
Y yo
Las olas me perdone

Cada mentira me quemo
Para que dicho tantas
Se te quiema tambien?
Cada mentira me quemo
Para todos estaban en llamas
Siempre y siempre

Olvidese de lo que dijo
La mentira es simpre mentira
El pasado es el pasado
Se que debo sequir adelante
Y you
Las olas me perdone

Siempre son las ondas

Sweet Serenade

For everything there is a season
But this, this is worse than winter

Iced over, blocking off the world
No longer allowing heartbreak
The anguish holds to her

I'll never hurt you
Say it again and again
I think I'm falling for you, too
Liars, when they speak truth,
Are never believed

After every single lie
She falls to the ground

A sweet serenade
An unbeautiful disaster
Only for a moment
The lights touch her eyes

I see it.
Happiness is possible

But it is engulfed by pain.
And she ends it all
With one final good-bye

So long and goodnight

Monday, February 22, 2010

Holding Onto My Answer

Call me foolish one more time, Hope
I know that I can take it again
Dare I try to live once more?
Try and complete the puzzle of me?

I said that I knew
And I am sure that I was not lying
But oh, it is so hard to change
Especially this rapidly

Only time can allow a metamorphosis
But I have not the time
The waves pull me deeper
Farther into subconsciousness

I have allowed my submission too long
Change is a necessity for me
But is it possible right now?
Hope screams no

But I scream back yes.

Of Pet Names and Rain

Dimly lit stage
Two chairs
Two minds
Catching my eyes
Using that
Special name

But why, oh, why isn't it me?
I scream it to the night sky
Darkening from lead-ons
And my tears hide in the rain

Your hand is
Dangerously
Close to mine
I feel a spark
I bet it's one sided

It slips into mine
I feel that warmth
I crave it indeed
I see the heat
With trained eyes

Why, oh, why isn't it me?
I scream it to the night sky
Darkening from lead-ons
My tears hide in the rain

Voices surround us
Two hearts
Two minds
You're all I see
Dark hair
Bright eyes

Use her name
Use that name
Use my name

Why, oh, why isn't it me?
I scream it to the night sky
Darkening from lead-ons
My tears hide in the rain

Why, oh, why isn't it me?
I scream to the sky
The fire dances in your eyes
In the storm I hear that name

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Drop Me A Letter II

There are times when I wish
I could gouge out my eyes
There are times when I wish
I knew what those looks implied

I give, I give
Guess I just can't win
I'm done, I'm done
You've won
Drop me a letter
Attached to a star
When you change your mind
From what you have so far
I give, I give
You win

Go ahead and flirt with her
Right in front of me
I know when you close your eyes
She is all you see

So I'll give it up
For you
Change my mind
For you
Forget the past
For you
And your fantasies

I give, I give
Guess I just can't win
I'm done, I'm done
You've won
Drop me a letter attached to a star
When you change your mind from
What you have so far
I give, I give
You win

I give, I give
It's an impossible win
I'm done, I'm done
Just coming undone

The past is the past
Knew it wouldn't last
The future's still ahead
But it won't be you

I give, I give
I knew I wouldn't win
I'm done, I'm done
You won
Drop me a letter attached to a star
When you keep me forever
And love all the scars
'Cuz I didn't know that I'd
Make it this far
Drop me a letter
Attached to a star

I give, I give
You win

Awakening

Something is changing
A metamorphosis of sorts
Growing up and experiencing life

Something is different
An evolution of sorts
Forgetting the past and living in the present

For a new day and age have
Awakened
Let us welcome them with
Open arms
It only hurts at the
Beginning
Suffer through the tears
And go on

Life is a challenge
An obstacle course
Climbing up mountains proves its difficulty

Willow trees flourish
Waving their limbs in the breeze
Perservering in the greatest of storms

For a new day and age have
Awakened
Let us welcome them with
Open arms
It only hurts at the
Beginning
Suffer through the tears
And go on

Something is changing
And evolution of sorts
Forgetting yesterday and living for tomorrow

Something is changing
A metamorphosis
Cacoon to butterfly

Life to death
Death to life

Open your eyes

For a new day and age have
Awakened
Let us welcome them with
Open arms
It only hurts at the
Beginning
Suffer through the tears
And go on

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Low Self-Esteem is a Bitch

I guess believing isn't good enough
Anymore
I guess trying isn't enough
Today
'Cuz everytime I try to find
The hidden meaning in your eyes
You tell me that I'm wrong
But I swear

I feel like I'm losing
Everything I tried to gain
I feel I'm losing you
Again
Even though you say I'm wrong
I can't believe it, I'm not strong
I'm too weak to believe

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Again?

Bad, bad, bad
Mean
Cruel
Harsh
Break him again,
Why don't you?
He's done nothing
But love you!
You bitch
I hate you
You're hurting him
Selfish, selfish
Bitch

Hilarity Ensues

Oh, ouch
That one stung, didn't it?
Baby, lying won't help you
When talking to me
Bet it burned escaping your teeth
"I'll never hurt you"
Within a two day span, it was gone
Nice to know
That I'm not worth the truth
Angry?
Oh, you better believe it
But you're not worth my time

Try and Break Me

Say you're sorry
For the lies you told within three hours
Oh, sorry
For the empty words; they didn't mean a thing

So you care
That's a laugh
For my bleeding heart to take it
So you care?
What a lie
I knew that you were fakin'

I re-read the texts
Laugh out loud
Roll on the floor laughing my ass off
Then get off the ground
Get off the ground

I knew that you would charm me
And I knew that I would try
To get a bit closer
To be the apple of your eye
But it was stupid
A game to you
I don't want to make things right
Take a chance
Try and fucking break me

And explanation
Would be useful at this time
An intervention
Will put you back in line

So you're sorry
What a joke
I just can't believe you
So you're dumb
Well, no duh
You lied to us both

I knew that you would charm me
And I knew that I would try
To get a bit closer
To be the apple of your eye
But it was stupid
A game to you
I don't want to make things right
Take a chance
Try and fucking break me

I re-read the texts
Laugh out loud
Roll on the floor laughing my ass off
Then get off the ground
Get off the ground

I knew that you would charm me
And I knew that I would try
To get a bit closer
To be the apple of your eye
But it was stupid
A game to you
I don't want to make things right
Take a chance
Try and fucking break me

Runaway Love

I refuse to be the middle man
I don't care
I'm leaving
Figure it out yourself
I'm not cutting for you
And don't you dare call me weak
I'm strong
I just need a break
So I'm leaving
And I don't want to come back

Wake Up, ******

I relive the moment
Pretending it's a dream
You're lying
You're not?
Why, why?

Why did you re-open the scars?
Why did the past come back?
Everything he said was true
And I miss you
Or the person you used to be

I take the needle
Press it into my skin
Wake up, ******
Oh, you're not sleeping
Not dreaming
Then what went so wrong?

Why did you re-open the scars?
Why did the past come back?
Everything he said was true
And I miss you
Or the person you used to be

Every cut is for you
For everytime I couldn't
Make you proud
For everytime I let you down
For everytime you hurt me
Every lie
Every broken promise
Every broken heart

Do you hear me sobbing?
I hurt
I really do
And I'm so sorry
I really miss you
But I doubt you even notice

Why did you re-open the scars?
Why did the past come back?
Everything he said was true
And I miss you
Or at least who you used to be

I hate you
I love you
I miss you
I'm sorry
Wake up

You Can Care Or Not, The Choice Is Yours

Bet you don't care
That inside I'm dying
Bet you don't care
That outside I'm crying
The tears sting behind my eyes
I can't believe I fell for lies

My head is throbbing
With unrequited love
Bet you don't care that
You led me on
Why can't you see
What you do to me?

It's too bad for you
You lost the best thing
That happened to you
Too bad for you
'Cuz I told you every
Little thing about me
Sucks to be you
Guess you'll live without me
It's too bad for you

Bet you will care that
You lost my friendship
Bet you will care that
You ended it
You don't see the
Other side of me

It's too bad for you
You lost the best thing
That happened to you
Too bad for you
'Cuz I told you every
Little thing about me
Sucks to be you
Guess you'll live without me
Too bad for you

Bet you don't care
Bet you will care
Bet you won't care
Bet you don't care

It's too bad for you
You lost the best thing
That happened to you
Too bad for you
'Cuz I told you every
Little thing about me
Sucks to be you
Guess you'll live without me
It's too bad for you

My Sweet Refusal

Candy hearts, pinks and reds
Cupid's arrows, bows on heads
A ridiculous festivity
One for love and hope and glee
Won't mean anything to me
I refuse to partake

Don't you see what's at stake?
My sanity, for goodness sake!
This lovebug bites too many times
Oh, this holiday shall not be mine

Warm our hearts
And we'll melt the snow
It's a romantic sitcom show
And I refuse to partake

Oh, The Irony

Isn't it funny?
'Just give it a chance...'
Hypocrisy at its finest
I'm laughing
Through these forsaken tears
You don't get it
Oh, poor child
You'll learn one day
But not through me

Don't Bother Waiting For Me

I bet you're lost
Well so am I
I just don't see why
You felt the need to lie

I bet you're sorry
Well, I am too
I'm stupid for believing
That what you said was true

Hold up
Wait a minute
Put a bit of love in it
Can't you see what's happening?
Tearing apart
But I refuse to restart
So if you're leaving
Don't bother waiting for me

I bet you care
Well, not really
You just rambled on
Forgot about my feelings

Hold up
Wait a minute
Put a bit of love in it
Can't you see what's happening?
Tearing apart
But I refuse to restart
So if you're leaving
Don't bother waiting for me

I know I shouldn't care
You're not worth my time
'Cuz the shit that you told me
Baby, it's out of line

Hold up
Wait a minute
Screw that bit of love in it
'Cuz I don't fucking care
Tearing apart
I'll never ever restart
So you mean shit to me
Go ahead and leave
Don't bother waiting for me

I'm Done

Lies upon lies
They escape your teeth
With that charming smile
I, I know
To hold myself
Accountible

For this
I'm the one who fucked up
For this
I'm the one who should've known

I guess I cannot believe
Any longer
Too late to make this friendship
Stronger
I guess the words didn't mean a thing
I don't know if you will ever
Understand
What it means to truly be a
Man
I'm sorry for trying
Sorry for crying
Over you
But now I'm done

Self-pity flows
From your mouth
Just like a river
I can't deny it
This kind of hurts

Oh, this
Is making my life so complicated
This
Isn't worth the fight

I guess I cannot believe
Any longer
Too late to make this friendship
Stronger
I guess the words don't mean a thing
I doubt that you'll ever
Understand
What it truly means to be a man
I'm sorry for trying
Sorry for crying
Over you
But now I'm done

Oh, I guess I'm done with this
Oh, done with your bullshit
It keeps coming out
Refusing to stay in silence
But oh well

I guess I cannot believe
Any longer
Too late to make the friendship
Stronger
Of course this happens to me
I doubt that you will understand
How to truly be a man
I'm sorry
Oh, sorry
I guess I'm done crying
I'm done

Monday, February 8, 2010

Tension

Remember my assured face?
Well, you broke me
I'm sorry for believing you
And I'm sorry for trying

He says I'm wrong to forgive
Well, I don't agree
It had to be done
Otherwise, could I move on?

I guess we're friends still
Well, at least we pretend to be
And I guess it's fine
But is it tense for you too?

Sunday, February 7, 2010

A Different Meaning To Love Bite

Hold on for a minute
Tell me what game your playing
Hold on for a minute
Tell me what you're saying

I can't let my guard down
Whenever you're around
I can't let the walls break
I can't

'Cuz I've been hurt
And lied to
And broken-hearted
I've been hurt
I've cried, too
And felt love's bite
What goes around comes around
Don't wanna break down
Because of you

Hold on for a second
I don't know if I believe you
Hold on for a second
Tell me what you're saying is true

I can't be your everything
'Cuz she still holds a piece
Of what I want, need
I can't

I've been hurt
And lied to
And broken-hearted
I've been hurt
I've cried, too
And felt love's bite
What goes around comes around
Don't wanna break down
Because of you

And because of you
The walls go up
The mask goes down
See those tears
They're because of you

I've been hurt
And lied to
And broken-hearted
I've been hurt
I've cried, too
And felt love's bite
What goes around comes around
Don't wanna break down
Because of you
Not for this love bite

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Yell At Me Again, Why Don't You?

Sharp, stinging tears threaten to release
They well behind her dark eyes
Can you save her, pretty please?
'Cuz no one else will bother

Attacked from all corners
Surrounded, invaded
Forgetting that she has feelings, too
Enough with her
She isn't worth it

They yell, scream, harass
Leaving her confused, crying
Tell me, tell me
What did I do?
What made me hated by all of you?

'Cuz I don't see it
No one tells me
No one wants to
And I think I'll give up now