Thursday, January 28, 2010

Hold Up

Don't do it.
Don't leave me.
I say it's okay
But really it's not
You don't understand
It'll hurt if you do
No, no, no
Why are you doing this?
Why, why, why?
You'll never understand!
I thought you wanted to
Be my friend
Help me
Break down the barriers
Something
Proved me wrong, didn't you?
So hold up.
Say it to my face
Before walking out on me

Wait A Minute

Wait a second
Wait a minute

You're speaking
With anger
And not with logic
I doubt you hear
What you are saying

I bet you didn't mean
It
But you said it anyways
I'm not her
I never will be

Forgot that I existed, right?
Well.
I guess I'm used to it by now
So I give up.
I give in.
Lose me again.

Put A Little Boom In It

Gently, I etch the words
Onto my skin
The ink stays, proving
My emotions in writing

They are very noticeable
On one side
But on the other side
They are not.
Kind of like me.

You don't see more than
One half of me
I refuse to let you in
I won't.

'Cuz I don't need the pain

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Oops. That Was Stupid

Well
It kinda stings
Kinda pissed off my friend
He's going to throw me
Through a window now
Oops.
That was stupid

Monday, January 25, 2010

Looking Right Through Me

I bet you don't see me
That girl who ever so
Adores you
I bet you don't hear me
That girl who really truly
Loves you

I can guess that I'm
Invisible
To your green eyes
Completely seen through
Can't comprehend it
Can you?
Oh, forget about me
I'll be fine
I think

I want
I need
I crave
I plead

Why don't you see?
I've broken down every wall
Every barrier
Everything
I trust you
Don't do it
Don't hurt me

I want
I need
I crave
I plead

You know what you do
To me
Don't break this heart
Not again
No, no, no
I can't deal
It hurts
No

I want
I need
I crave
I plead

You're looking right through me

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Justice (English Translation)

So much I can't handle
You're just so fake
I can't deal with it anymore
Because karma isn't working
Do me a favour and get out
'Cause I'm not in love with you

Do me justice
Stay out of my mind
You're so conceited
So arrogant
Yet you think you're not
And that's why I want justice
Because you hurt me too badly

I thought it was true love
But it was only a dream
No, only a nightmare
All you thought of was you
And I couldn't take it anymore
So get out the door

Do me justice
Stay out of my mind
You're so conceited
So arrogant
Yet you think you're not
And that's why I want justice
Because you hurt me too badly

Give It A Shot (Sam's Song)

Can't you see the longing
In her eyes
And the way she just
Adores you?
Can't you help but
Realize
That she would never
Ignore you?

You're clueless as to
How she's feeling
Unaware of her
Determination
Maybe it's just me
But I always see her
Keeling over from her
Admiration

Give it a shot
What's the worst that could happen?
It's childs' play
I'm telling you this
If it doesn't work
Just remember that
Nothing is forever
So give it a shot

Can't you see how bad
You're hurting her
And thaat she really
Loves you?
Can't you tell that she
Wants you as hers
Evven if her best friend
Does, too?

You're just out there
Pretending you don't see
Her watching
After you
I can't believe you
Won't return the love
We all know she has
Given you

Give it a shot
What's the worst that could happen?
It's childs' play
I'm telling you this
If it doesn't work
Just remember nothing is
Forever
So give it a shot

I can't bear it
When my friends are hurting
When things aren't going
The way they planned
Come on, accept her for
Who she is
Man up and
Take a stand

Give it a shot
What's the worst
That could happen?
Maybe you'll fall
In love with her

Give it a shot
What's the worst
That could happen?
It's still childs' play
I'm telling you this
If it doesn't work
Remember some things
Aren't meant for forever
Forever
Baby, give her a shot
You know you want to
Give it a shot

Run

Stop trying to prove yourself
The world wants you gone
So go
Go, go
Run away and never return
Farther, farther, baby
Escape your fate which is
Only horrors
Only to be betrayed
Only to be unloved
Only to be alone
Only to be abandoned
You can't prove yourself
To the entire world
So go
Go, go
Farther, farther, baby

I Wrote Your Love Song

So I take it you don't trust me?
Well, I guess I'm used to it by now
Considering I wrote this love song
For you, there's not reason to be
Wary of me
I'm no threat to the two of you
I've got my own sights set
They're nothing like yours

It's Too Bad For You

When did you say, "Oh well, she'll live"?
When did you decide to just not give
Why did you decide to leave her out
With nothing but her sad little pout?

When did you say:
"Isn't it too bad?
Oh, poor girl, so sad.
But enough is enough
She's made of stronger stuff.
I'm sure she'll be okay
We'll say 'sorry' another day"?

When did you say, "Oh well, she'll live"?
When did you decide to just not give
Why did you decide to say
"It's too bad for you"?

What I've Come To Realize

When do we get the big image we seek?
In a day, a year, maybe a week?
They say to come to conclusions
And face the facts, ignore delusions

But what I've come to realize is that
Nothing can ever be a lie
Because what do we know?
Maybe snow is rain and
Rain is snow
Reality is never the key
Unlock your fantasy
And find what you wish to
Realize

What did you see through your memory?
Did you see a lfie lived happily?
Or is it despair and misery
That keep us under lock and key?

What I've come to realize is
Nothing can ever be a lie
Who's in charge of this set?
Maybe wet is dry
And dry is wet
Realization may be the key
Unlock your fantasy
And realize

Cacophony is Like the Word Orange.

It's an inconvenient truth
But the truth is best, now
Isn't it?

I'm sorry
For loving you
I'm sorry
For trying to be
What I couldn't be
I'm sorry
For being imperfect
I'm sorry
For dying on the inside

It's an inevitable destruction
The incineration of
A bleeding soul

I'm sorry
For loving you
I'm sorry
For trying to be
Who I couldn't be
I'm sorry
For being imperfect
I'm sorry
For dying on the inside

It's complete pandemonium
Utter chaos, mass death
A cacophony of terrors

I'm sorry
For loving you
I'm sorry
For trying to be
Who I couldn't be
I'm sorry
For being imperfect
I'm sorry
For bleeding on the inside

I'm sorry
For trying
I'm sorry
For being set up
To fail

I Hate What You Do To My Heart

So I guess you found the truth
Why am I not surprised?
You could always read me like a book
Even when you couldn't
See my big brown eyes
I can't believe this
At all

I never could imagine this feeling
It hits me like a bullet
Stabs me like a knife
But leaves me feeling warm
Heated with relief

You're pretty clever
I'll give you that
You managed to break down
The wall I've been
Putting up for so long
But you'll leave me
Like they always do

Of course
Because I'm not a princess
And you'll never be my
Knight in shining armor

I Guess I Don't Matter

Held to a certain degree

Of closeness

But unable to reach the center

Because my words are lies

Or least what you believe them to be



Push me back against these walls

Never believe me

I refuse to lie to you

You shine so brightly in my eyes

Don't believe it

I guess I never believe you either



So what is this built on?

Laughs, hopes?

Talks of boys?

Does it even matter?



Where is that trust that I

Put in your hands?

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Together We Cry

Do you remember writing that line?
I still have it, didn't erase it
Every so often, I look and
Think of you
Let's not cry together, love
If anything, let's laugh
Or dance or sing or love
The city's not your only friend
And its lights are always there
But I promise, I'm much more
Reliable than them

Eyes Don't Lie

Tell me
Give me the truth
I'm sick of not knowing
Just spill the secrets
Tell me.
I see it behind your eyes
You may not know it
But I need you, too

It's Too Much At Once

I hear the love songs
I feel myself breaking
Breaking down
I missed the feeling
But it's too much
Wow.
It's too much.
I can't be just a friend
Anymore

Author's Note: I think anyone who TRULY knows me knows who this is about. -coughcough-

Surrender

You give it your all
But you're set up to fail
You try to be strong
But will never prevail
Only time can erase the scars
For when the world breaks your heart
Again and again

The world kicks you to the ground
You try to get up but it's not enough
So cry for surrender
A surrender
The world smacks you in the face
Hoping to put you in your place
So cry for a surrender
A surrender

You're on your own
Looking for joy
The people you know
Play with you like a toy
Only storms wash away the pain
Lightning crashes and it starts to rain
Again and again

The world kicks you to the ground
You try to get up but it's not enough
So cry for surrender
A surrender
The world smacks you in the face
Hoping to put you in your place
So cry for surrender
A surrender

Giving in's the only option
But in this world the strong survive
The pain for ordinary life
Lets you know that you're alive

The world kicks you to the ground
You try to get up but it's not enough
So cry for surrender
A surrender
The world smacks you in the face
Hoping to put you in your place
So cry for surrender
Cry for surrender

Change

The sky is blue
Light, robin's egg blue
A beautiful hue
Untouched by clouds
Clear as water
Bright with the sun's rays
Streaming to warm the
Earth

Traces of powdery white
Join with the azure
Still equally sunny
But holding more clouds
Gently, ever so gently
They float along warm thermals
Slowly parading above us

The clouds gradually darken
Holding more and more
Tiny droplets of water
Keeping them stored
Until blessed release
Straining under the weight
The clouds mover slower, slower
'Til arriving at a hault

The sky grows dark
No blue is seen
Only hints of white
But they are overpowered
By blacks and grays

CRACK!
The lightning strikes
The thunder roars
Droplets fly from above
Plinking and plunking
On hard surfaces
Hours and hours on end
The wind rushes by

But soon it stops
And gently, ever so gently
The clouds float past
And the sun reappears
To dry up the rain

Blue Tide

Hold me tightly
Don't let go
As the brightly
Shining snow falls

I wish at 11:11
Every night
To have your smile
In my sight

In my dreams
You're by my side
And sunlight gleams
Off the blue tide

Author's Note: More traditional poem, I guess. Rhyming and all. Not my favourite type to write, but it will have to suffice.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Abnormal... Like An Umbrella

You make me smile
You make me laugh
When you're gone
I miss you
Is that normal?

Normal to ache
To long
To want?
Normal to miss
Those playful eyes?

'Cuz if not
I'm completely abnormal

Oh Noes! Quick Write II!!

The hail drops
Inot the courtyard
Plink, Plink
There's a reason
I hate January
Hate Illinois
The weather is
Far too
Inconsistent
For my liking
Plink, plink
Plink, plink

Heartbreaks Are Forever

You ask what's wrong
I can't tell you
I can't tell you
I can't go on
Without you
Without you

You won't ever see
What's inside
I can't let you in
I can't

Heartbreaks are forever
If I drop the hint
I know that I'll get hurt
Heartbreaks are forever
Mess with fire, and I
Will get burned
Stay away from the blaze

What's going on?
I can't tell you
I can't tell you
I've got to be strong
Without you
Without you

I doubt that you can tell
Exactly how hard I fell
I won't say it
I won't

Heartbreaks are forever
If I drop thhe hint
I know I will get hurt
Heartbreaks are forever
Mess with fire and I
Will get burned
Stay away from the blaze

Can't you see it?
Can't you tell?
This fire's burning hot as hell
No fireman could fight this flame
I only have myself to blame

Heartbreaks are forever
If I drop the hint I know
I will get hurt
Heartbreaks are forever
Mess with fire
And I get burned
Stay away from that
Beautiful blaze

Shattered Glass

Learn the paths before
Trying to move
'Cuz you're walking
On broken glass
Everytime you even
Blink
The shards stab you
Causing you to fall,
Re-opening the old
Scars you tried to
Forget and cover up

Knock It Off

You're trying too hard
Hon, you lost him
Give in
Give up
He's gone
No matter what
So knock it off
Give in
Give up

Reminds Me Of Real Chance Of Love

Two voices
One sound
Two headlights
One glow
Two roads
One path
Two faces
One smile
Two hearts
One love

On the Highway

Sitting in the car
Staring out the window
Skeletal tree branches
Eerie in the starless night
The headlights' glow
Light up the road
But only for a stretch
Of the highway
No one on the road
We don't see far ahead

x6

Why can't I think
When you are near?
You make my mornings
Worthwhile
You don't see it
You don't
And I can't get my
Courage up
To show you
Awkward much?

P.S. I'm Jealous

She's the apple of your eye
Someone you won't deny
But I wish I could pry
You out of her grasps

I swear you mean a lot to me
Something she can't ever see
'Cuz you're one of those things
Keeping me intact

Get out
Get lost
I know she can't be serious
P.S. I'm jealous of her
Natural dark hair
And the way she makes you stare
It's something I won't ever be
P.S. I'm jealous

I believe there's something more
When you walk her out the door
I just can't ignore this
Envy

Get out
Get lost
I know she can't be serious
P.S. I'm jealous of her
Natural dark hair
And the way she makes you stare
It's something I won't ever be
P.S. I'm jealous

Too hard to fight the feeling
Too hard to fight the past
Too hard to gain his love
And to make her friendship last

Get out
Get lost
I know she can't be serious
P.S. I'm jealous of her
Beautiful dark eyes
That I could never despise
I don't get it
Why can't you see?
She's who I wanna be
P.S. I'm jealous

Monday, January 18, 2010

Solo and Ensemble Is Going to SUCK

You're imperfect
Never good enough
Too trusting
Too innocent
Always naive
Obnoxious and irritating

You lose everyone
You can't keep friends
You scare every single
One of them off
Stop trusting them

Of course you scared him
You open up too easily

My subconscious screams at me
And I hide from the words

"No, no, no!
Not him, he's too sweet!"

Fight back, fight back
I try
I really do
But I fail

No response from you yet
I'm just waiting anxiously
But of course I've lost you.
Just like I always do

Guess Things Just Can't Go My Way

You couldn't just shut up
Could you, Zia?
You had to open your big mouth
Learn to keep quiet
Why do you trust everyone
When you know you're going
To lose them in the end

Of course.
You had to trust him
Didn't you, Zia?
You had to open up
And now he thinks you're
A freak
A loser
A creep
Of course.

You'll never be happy
You lost another friend
And he actually made
You really happy
Why can't you
Ever learn to be silent?

Oh Noes! A Quick Write!!

Who do I have a chance with?
No one
No one whatsoever
God.
You don't know me
No one cares enough to know me
I hate everything
Fuck it all
I hate this
Mildly pissed off
Depressed
Goddess.
What's wrong with me?
Shoot me now.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Sharing Is Good

I see you across the room
Every so often you look my way
But boy, you look confused
Sometimes we don't know what to say

And I think that I know
The smiles that you wear
Tell me the secret
It's more fun to share

Don't give me an answer
That I don't wanna hear
Come on over, and just whisper
It into my ear
I won't tell (x6)
I know that you are capable
Of letting it out
Come on, baby, I just need
To know what it's about
I won't tell (x6)

Sometimes your eyes get to me
They're lovelier than you would believe
But, baby, can't you see
The sadness on my face when you leave

And I think I know
The expression you wear
Tell me the secret
We're friends, so let's share

Don't give me an answer
That I don't wanna hear
Come on, baby, and whisper
It in my ear
I won't tell (x6)
I know that you're capable
Of letting it out
Come on, I just need to know
Who it's about
I won't tell (x6)

I know, oh I know
What smiles you wear
Give me the secret
It's fun to share

Don't give me an answer
That I don't wanna hear
Come on over, whisper it
Into my ear
I won't tell (x6)
I know that you're capable
Of letting it out
Come on, baby, I just need to
Know who it's about
I won't tell (x6)
I won't tell
I promise

Remember Who You Are

Turn away from
Once upon a time
Turn away from
The storybook rhyme
Tremors of departed love
Whisper from the skies above
To transform you

But you

Chase the shadows into the sunlight
Don't go down without a good fight
Remember who you are
Remember who you are
There are fairytales and happy ever afters
Recessions and natural disasters but
Remember who you are
Remember who you are

Hearts of stone
Are sinking down
Hearts of stone
On the ocean ground
Songs from the cosmos above
Sing about departed love
To change you

But you

Chase the shadows into the sunlight
Don't go down without a good fight
Remember who you are
Remember who you are
There are fairytales and happy ever afters
Recessions and natural disasters but
Remember who you are
Remember who you are

Tremors of departed love
Songs from the cosmos above
Sing about departed love
Whisper from the skies above

Chase the shadows into the sunlight
Don't go down without a good fight
Remember who you are
Remember who you are
Fairytales and natural disasters
Recessions and happy ever afters
Remember who you are
Remember who you are

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Listen

You're aching
Breaking down
Hurting
But the music fills your ears
Healing the wounds
Surpassing the hurt
And reigning as the true victor

Sometimes the lyrics jsut say it all
Listen, and let your heart sing
Listen
Listen
Listen

Monday, January 11, 2010

Chicago + January = Blows Mega Giraffe Abortions

This snow keeps falling
Never ending
Just gently caressing the land
With its sweet white flakes

All of a sudden...

WHHHOOOSSSHHH!!!

The wind sends an army of
Those same flakes into
Your face
Leaving you cold, wet, and
Possibly blinded

Shivershivershiver

Even walking to the bus stop
Is much more of a pain
Oh, darn
I have to carry my horn there, too

Trudgetrudge

WHHHHOOOOSSSHHH!!

'We love it here'
The citizens say as their
Teeth clatter, bodies shiver,
And breath freezes in the air

Yeah.
Sure we do.

Sometimes The Role Is Too Big

Eventually, caring has just
Ceased
Isn't that odd?
The girl who cared so much
About people's opinions of her
Has given up her feat

But wait!
Her insecurities
They're back with a vengeance
Merciless, shrieking
Horrible flaws
Clawing at her calm exterior
Ripping her apart from the inside
Out

They shred her to pieces
But she hides it well
Oh, she can act well
Holding back the tears, she continues
This game of play-acting
And follows her script
Modeling perfection

As soon as she gets home,
However...
The plot thickens!

Agonizing pain courses through her
Crying into the night, she curses
Herself for being everything
Society scoffs at
The role she fills is too big
She's done
She quits

I give up
I'm done
Find someone else

And she walks off the set,
Out of the studio, and
Never looked back

Note To Self

Get over yourself, Zia
You're going to live
You're such a loser
Why I am stuck with
You is beyond me
Oh well
I promise
You'll live

My Description Would Be A Train Crash

Why?
Why aren't the feelings gone?
It's been almost a year
Since it hit me
No, no, no
I can't do this
I can't
I need you
I want you
Oh, Goddess
Why doesn it hurt so badly
To be near one like this?

Quick Write: In My Mind

I can't let go
Everywhere I look
You're there
Stop making this
So hard for me
I hate decisions
I hate this
Why are you always
In my mind?

Once Upon A Fairytale

Take a look into my eyes
Can't you see how hard I cry
Over you, oh, it's so hard
To make it through
And wear the scars

They're on my heart
Why can't you see
Deep inside, you're hurting me
And I crumble
To the ground

Once upon a fairytale
She held her own and made it through
But life came by and pushed her
To the ground, oh no
And the evil step-mom ripped her apart
Then beat her black and blue
Called her every name in her book
Her wishes didn't come true

Don't be scared for the princess
She's doing fine, I promise that
Oh, she's hurting and terrified
But she's stronger deep inside

Once upon a fairytale
She held her own and made it through
But life came by and pushed her
To the ground, oh no
And the evil step-mom ripped her apart
The beat her black and blue
Called her every name in the book
Her wishes didn't come true

'Cuz once upon a fairytale
The wishes didn't come true

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Reminiscence

Look back
See those eyes?
See the tears welling behind them?
Don't return to those
Awful memories
You can't
You won't

Hold on to it
Don't forget
But don't ever return
It's painful
Remembering
The tears fall to the ground
Splashing in the dust

Look back
See that face?
See the pained expression upon it?
Don't go back to that
It's not worth it
No one wants that girl
No one

Hold onto it
Don't forget
But don't ever return
It's painful
Remembering
The tears fall to the ground
Splashing in the dust

There's Always A Reason To Be Enveloped

I keep reminding myself of
The words you told me

They're lies
They're lies

The voices hold me under
The never-ending ocean

Worthless
Inadequate

Keeping me in the shadows
Holding me from happiness
Disregarding my screams
Ignoring my pain

Stupid
Stupid
Stupid

Shivering in the night
I hold onto what little
Hope I have but know
That it'll never be enough

The words are lies
They're lies
They're lies

The voices surround me
And keep me hurting
The darkness engulfs me
And the voices are all
I can ever hear

Thursday, January 7, 2010

The Old Saying Goes.

You have nerve, you know that?
Oh, play with my mind
And you pretend it didn't happen
Mess with my friends
See what happens
If you hurt her in any way,
Shape, or form
Prepare to suffer for it
I am not interested in games
Hearts aren't made to be broken
I promise you one thing
Break her heart:
I break your face.

Time Bomb

I'm a ticking time bomb
You're calming like the sea
I always feel so comfortable
When it's just you and me
And when everything's falling
Apart, I want you to hold
Me close
But then I gaze back at her
And I don't want to impose

Don't let me feel this way
I'll just be causing problems
I see the way she looks at you
I read right through her smile
I cannot act this way
Or else I'll cause more drama
I'll just leave it alone
I can't be your ticking time bomb

I always used to wonder
If it was possible
If there was the connection
Through winter, spring, and fall
And when I look into your eyes
Everything's okay
But then I see her shaky grin and
Can't get in the way

Don't let me feel this way
I'll just be causing problems
I see the way she looks at you
I read right through her smile
I cannot act this way or else
I'll cause more drama
I'll just leave it alone
I can't be his ticking time bomb

Guess that I'll stop staring
Into your baby-blues
Cause I see the emotion
Between the two of you
And when the days turn
Into weeks, I'll look back
And smile
'Cuz I know what I did was
Right, at least for a while

Don't let me feel this way
I'll be causing problems
I see the way she looks at you
I read right through her smile
I cannot act this way or else
I'll cause more drama
Guess I'll leave it alone
I can't be the ticking time bomb

Encore

It was last night
When you stopped by
I guess I was right
You don't ever try
I used to pretend
That we were alright
But now in the end
It's in plain sight

I'm only giving you
One more chance, baby
One more shot
It's your final dance
So give it all you've got
'Cuz when the curtains close
No one really knows the
Final score or if there's
An encore

You call my cell phone
Saying "sorry"
You're not on your own (yet)
I say "no biggie"
But by tomorrow
You'll do it again
Oh, what a sorrow but
You're just my boyfriend

I'm only giving you
One more chance, baby
One more shot
It's your final dance
So give it all you've got
When the curtains close
No one really knows
The final score or if there's
An encore

By the morning
I know the truth
You never loved me
Just my youth
And by that time
I have realized
You're bad as slime
And I'm through with
Saying

I'm only giving you
One more chance
Only one more shot
It's the final dance

I'm only giving you
One more chance, baby
One more shot
It's your final dance
So give it all you've got
'Cuz when the curtains close
No one ever knows the
Final score or if there's an
Encore

The final score
There's not gonna be an
Encore

Author's Note: OLD

Monday, January 4, 2010

Silence

I can't breathe
This truth is suffocating me
And it hurts, it hurts

I can't speak
These looks silence me
And it burns, it burns

Guess I'm not the one
To get your attention
Oh, she's the one
Who has the connection
And I'm sorry
I still love you
But I don't think I
Can do this anymore
Might as well stop trying

I can't see
The smiles blinded me
And it's dark, it's dark

I can't hear
When both of you are near
And it's silent

Guess I'm not the one
To get your attention
Oh, she's the one
Who has the connection
And I'm sorry
I still love you
But I don't think I
Can do this anymore
Might as well stop trying

It hurts
It burns
It's dark
It's silent
Stop the burning
Numb the pain
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
It's dark
And the silence

Guess I'm not the one
To get your attention
Oh, she's the one
Who has the connection
And I'm sorry
I still love you
I'm sorry
I still love you
But I can't do this
Anymore
Might as well stop
Trying

Unearthly Dream

I sit and wait
Wait for someone to
Notice that I
Actually exist
What a miracle
It would be
But it's such
An unearthly
Dream

My Door Is Off It's Hinges

I'm done
You win
I'll give up now
I'm tired of this
So I'm going to go
And sleep for the
Rest of eternity
Sweet dreams, love
Sweet dreams

Hey, Look, A Saxophone

This has been deleted to prevent further issues. For all who read, hope you enjoyed it. :)

Love, Zia Sampson

Equinox

They are two different sides of
The moon
Two halfs to the same whole

One who always makes me
Smile
Knows how to tick me off
Holding back for fear of hurt
Has a way of making me
Want to hold him close and
Never let go whenever
He's in pain
My dark side of the moon

One who always makes me
Daydream
Knows how to make me laugh
Holding back for reasons unknown
Has a way of making me
Want to curl up in his arms
And sleep peacefully
Whenever I need love
My light side of the moon

It's an equinox of my heart
A choice I can't make
Either way it ends badly
For reasons that need no words

Friday, January 1, 2010

Please

Captured within an instant
But held back for so long
Wanting
Needing
Craving
Adoring
Loving
But completely unreachable
Unattainable to mere freshman
Too amazing for someone
As bland as me
So many emotions within
Anger
Sorrow
Regret
Admiration
Contempt
Content
Adoration
Absolutely perfect for me
But utterly oblivious
If you're going to forget me
Do it correctly
Please

Up, Up, And Away

Up, up, and away
To places unknown
Where your dreams lie
A place that's your own
Higher than the clouds
Farther than the sun
Opened imagination
Let us run, run, run
Following a moonbeam
Drifting on the dreams
Giving into our minds
For some time, it seems

Author's Note: I wrote this a loooong time ago. So I know it's awful. Just thought I'd put it on here for the hell of it.

Jealous of Only One Thing

There's only one part of me
That honestly is envious
It is only of those friends who
Will always take my place
Of your happiness?
That's a bit doubtful
But of her?
Oh, yes, of course
Why not just say it?
Say that I'm not enough
Say that I'll never be close
Say that I'm not worth your time
Say that I'm just a pity friend

Say it
Say it
Say it

Prove to me that you care
'Cuz I honestly doubt it now
I'll never be her
I'm never going to be

Jealous of him?
That'd be ridiculous
Just a friend
Never more
I want you happy
But I bet you doubt that
Too, don't you?