Monday, November 29, 2010

A Whole Different Breed

What did I do?
Where my pa-pizzazz go?
I guess I left it back
On the court
I'm taking a dive into
The deep end of this
Ocean of hope
And forgetting my mask
On the dock

Let's go out for the night
And give the whole world
Something to think about

You and me, baby, we could be
A whole different breed
Of beautiful endings
So give it a shot
While we have the time
Otherwise I'll be gone
In the blink of an eye
We either do or do not
Why not give me a try?

What about now?
What isn't so special about me?
I could've sworn that you
Were interested
I'm flying up high
Laughing in a sea of stars
They remind me of your eyes

So why don't we go out tonight
And give the world something to dream of?

You and me, baby, we could be
A whole different breed
Of beautiful endings
Give it a shot
While we have the time
Or I'll be gone in
The blink of an eye
Do or do not but why not
Give me a try?

How was I supposed to know
That I'd lose all my self-control
When it's you who is involved
This riddle can't be solved
Why can't I be yours?

You and me, baby, we could be
A whole different breed
Of beautiful endings
Give it a shot
While we still have time
Or I'll be gone in
The blink of an eye
Do or do not, but why not
Give me a try?

Pissed Off

Itching at my skin
Gnawing at my bones
Tearing at my flesh

By the Mother!
It's ridiculous
Irritation is here
Every day
Again and again

Thunder Strikes The Ground

Oh, oh..

One more night
At home by firelight
Outside the rain is pouring
One more night
And writing by moonlight
The thunder strikes the ground

Here tonight, the stars aren't shining
Here, the light goes out

One more sunrise
Lifts to meet my eyes
Outside the dawn is breaking
One more sunrise
Met with weary sighs
The blue sky meets the sunrays

Here today, the future's dawning
Here the past goes numb

Here tonight, the stars aren't shining
Here the light goes out
(Here today, the future's dawning
Here the past goes numb)

I can feel, I can feel
I can feel the power
I can see, I can see
I can see the day
I can feel, I can feel
I can feel the night sky
In the depth of my heart

One more night
At home at midnight
Outsude those clouds are fading
One more night
When stars stop shining bright
The rain falls to the ground

One more sunrise
Fills those darkened eyes
Promises for aforever
One more sunrise
Not to be despised
The sky fades to black

Here tonight, the stars aren't shining
Here the lights go out
(Here today, the future's dawning
Here the past is numb)

I can feel, I can feel
I can feel the power
I can see, I can see
I can see the day
I can feel, I can feel
I can feel the night sky
It is in me

Here tonight, the stars aren't shining
Here, the lights go out...

Sunday, November 28, 2010

I Guess I'm Sorry. But To Who?

Can't say sorry this time
Can't learn when to suck it up
I didn't mean it, I really didn't

I'm just an insecure little girl
Putting on a really good charade
And obviously you can't see through it

I don't know what you want anymore
Hell, I don't know what I want, either
But I think I finally get it

You never wanted to know me
You never wanted that pretty girl
You never wanted to jump off the edge

I don't know who to feel sorry for
You or me

Friday, November 19, 2010

Planetary Companionship

Oh, oh... Oh, oh...

I am alone in this dream
It's impossible to see
The other side
I'm unsure of this universe

Lead me to another planet
'Cuz here I am alone

Someone once told me
We weren't the only
Things in this galaxy
Or universe
I believe in magic
And different worlds
I follow the patterns
Of the stars

I am watching every shooting star
Don't forget to look up to the stars

I am alone on this earth
I cannot follow this
Hallucination
Or is it reality?

Take me to the moonrise
So I don't feel alone

Someone once told me
We weren't the only
Things in this galaxy
Or universe
I believe in magic
And different worlds
I follow the patterns
Of the sky

I will watch the clouds from the ground
And the rain will fall into my hands

Someone once told me
We weren't the only
Things in this galaxy
Or universe
Sometimes I feel like
I am the only
Thing on this planet
Thing on this earth

Take me to the moonrise
Or else I'll be alone

I follow the patterns of the stars
I am watching every shooting star
I will wish on every shooting star

Author's Note: This one ALSO has a crapload of interpretations. XD I wrote it to be mildly cynical and mildly calming. Take your pick.

Welcome to Reality

She lived in a fantasy and
Her mind was pure with falsities and
No one could take it from her

'Til one day life took her on a
Fast ride with lotf of loops and turns
She got off and she was anew

Ready, set, go
Welcome to the picture show
Alone, you're staring at a black screen
Hello and welcome to reality
Don't you know this is how it is?

She moved to a different town and
She doesn't see the rainbows, oh, how
Come her vision was taken away?

It started with a single word
And then life just became absurd
How come her eyes are going blank?

Ready, set, go
Welcome to the picture show
Alone, you're staring at a black screen
Hello and welcome to reality
Don't you know this is how it is

She's staring at a black screen
One day, just another dream
What does she say to opening her eyes?

Ready, set, go
Welcome to the picture show
Alone, she's staring at a movie screen
Hello and welcome to the past
Don't you know this is what we were?

Author's Note: This oe can be interpreted in SOO many different ways. It's crazy. Ask for my opinion, if you want. I'm always up for a poetry chat. :P

Nursery Rhymes

Ashes, ashes
We all fall down

I spy with my little eye
The clouds over this starry sky
What I spy is all around
This world is crashing down on me

Maybe we'll play hide-and-seek
Together here in this forever
I will hide and you will find and
We'll fall down to

Up and down, spinnin' round and round
Ring around the rosie
Can't deny what I feel inside
Pocket full of posie
Drowning now, sinking underground
Ring around the rosie
Fading deep into dreamless sleep
Pcket full of posie

(Ashes, ashes)
We all fall down

I spy with my little eye
A deeper meaning to the lies
What I spy is wrapped with fate
And the forces of love and hate

We can dress like we're in fairytales
A game of make-believe with only
One way to escape the tower
So we fall down

Up and down, spinnin' round and round
Ring around the rosie
Can't deny what I feel inside
Pocket full of posie
Drowning now, sinking underground
Ring around the rosie
Fading deep into dreamless sleep
Pocket full of posie
(Ashes, ashes)

Twinkle, twinkle, little star
Don't they wonder what you are
You're so high above the world
A diamond that see life unfurl

(Ashes, ashes)
We fall down

Up and down, spinnin' round and round
Ring around the rosie
Can't deny what I feel inside
Pocket full of posie
Drowning now, sinking underground
Ring around the rosie
Fading deep into dreamless sleep
Pocket full of posie

(Ashes, ashes xwhatever)

Ashes... ashes
We all fall down...

Author's Note: I was in a mildly cynical and pessimistic mood today. So. Interpret as you wish. <3

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Out Of My Mind

What is up with me?
You know you're gonna
Get hurt
You know he's too good
One day can't change that,
Can it?

What's up with me?
I know he's too fantastic
I know I'll end up crying
One question can't change that,
Can it?

You're out of your mind
If you think he'd even
Look your way
This time I know that
It's not an option
I could give him every
Single hint and everytime
I'd get turned down
But why?
Why'd he ask the question?
Oh, why
Did it even become a dream?
I can't believe

What's up with me?
I fell into this game
I don't know the rules
I can't learn them now,
Can I?

What's up with me?
I'm staring into space
And I'm drifting
I can't be brought down,
Can I?

You're out of your mind
If you think he'd even
Look your way
This time I know that
It's not an option
I could give him every
Single hint and everytime
I'd get turned down
But why?
Why'd he ask the question?
Oh, why
Did it even become a dream?
I can't believe

One more time
I'm sitting here
Pretending that it's fine
Oh, yeah
Everything is okay
One more time
I'm here
And I can't lie
It's not okay

I'm out of mind
For thinking he'd be interested
This time I'm gonna
Give it up, give it up

You're out of your mind
If you think he'd even
Look your way
This time I know that
It's not an option
I could give him every
Single hint and everytime
I'd get turned down
But why?
Why'd he ask the question?
Oh, why?
Did it become a dream?
I can't... believe

Author's Note: OHMYGOD!!! I duno why my choruses keep getting longer. I swear, on the original copy of this, the title was "Why Do My Choruses Keep Getting Longer?" So yeah. Pardon the lengthiness. :P

This One's To Me

Can't keep dreaming like this
Don't be crazy, Zia
You know better than to
Keep doing this

Can't keep living like this
Don't be insane, Zia
You know better than to
Keep fooling yourself

You know your faults
You know your strengths
You know what you want
Know what you need
But you can never reach it
Why is it always hanging
Over your head?

Can't keep believing like this
Don't be stupid, baby girl
You know better than to
Keep dreaming too hard

You know your faults
You know your strengths
You know what you want
Know what you need
But you can never reach it
Why is it always hanging
Over your head?

'Cuz every night you're
Wishing on a shooting star
And that monlight never
Answers your call
You're singing a song
That nobody knows
But their inferences
Fail them everytime

Don't keep believing
Don't keep dreaming
'Cuz the moonlight never
Answers me

Sunday, November 14, 2010

I Hate Formspring

Can't seem to understand
The misconceptions
Nothing you say is right
'Cuz you don't know the
Whole story of me

You're wrong, you're wrong
What you say isn't true
None of it is fact
It's fiction and falsity
You're wrong, you're wrong
Why not ask me the truth?
None of it is real
It's fake and forgotten

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Too Much

I feel like the world
Is crashing down on me
Like the wind is ripping
My soul out of my body
Everything and anything
I've known is being re-told
To me as though I've
Been reborn

And I can't breathe
Without the weight
Of long-lost secrecy
I can't think
Without the pain
Of being told too much

Monday, November 8, 2010

Flying High

Oh, whoa... oh, whoa, oh

Me, myself, and I
Are walking down this road
Don't know where to turn
Can't see where to go
I'm flying high
On this race with time
Can't find my place
Or a world that's mine

Oh, whoa... oh, whoa, oh

There's a different world
That I'm searching for
I'm stuck on Earth
But I'm asking for more
Can't see out of
This open door
'Cuz there's an invisible
Stopping force

Oh, whoa... oh, whoa, oh

I'm spinning round
On a wheel of fate
Can't find my heart
I'm so out of place
A spark in the night
It catches my eye
I take a breath
And the world's on fire

Oh, whoa... oh, whoa, oh

There's a different world
That I'm searching for
I'm stuck on Earth
But I ask for more
Can't walk out of
This open door
'Cuz there's a
Blocking force

Oh, whoa... oh, whoa, oh
Oh, whoa... oh, whoa, oh

I breathe in deeply
On fire, on fire, on fire
I can't see clearly
All of it is flames

There's a different world
That I'm searching for
I'm stuck on Earth
But I want more
Can't see out of
This open door
'Cuz there's a
Blocking force

I'm screaming out for
A different life
I keep crying and
I'm up all night
Darkness swallows
Up all the light
Can't walk out of
This night, this night, night

Oh, whoa... oh, whoa, oh...

What Do I Say?

What now?
What do I say now?
What now?
What am I supposed to do?
What now?
Why do I feel this way?
What now?
Was it my fault?

Am I not pretty enough?
Do I need a more tortured past?
Am I forgetting something?
What the fuck did I say?
Why am I breaking down?
Did I not cry hard enough?
Am I just too awful?
What do I say now?

Why me?
Why am I so pushy?
Why me?
Why did I try again?
Why me?
How am I supposed to feel?
Why me?
Why is it always my fault?

Am I not pretty enough?
Do I need a more tortured past?
Am I forgetting something?
What the fuck should I say?
Why am I breaking down?
Did I not cry enough?
Am I just too awful?
What do you want me to say?

So I'm a little bit lost
I'm a little bit hurt
I'm a little bit sad
And I can't even say sorry

I'm a little bit sorry
I'm a little bit wrong
I'm a little bit guilty
And I'm just really sorry

Am I not pretty enough?
Do I need a tortured past?
Am I forgetting something?
What the fuck should I say?
Why am I breaking down?
Did I not cry enough?
Am I just too awful?
What do you want me to say?

Why Don't You Listen?

"What did I tell you?"
He asked me
"What did I say?
I told you from
The beginning that
It'd end this way."

"What did I tell you?"
She asked me
"What did I say?
I was right in the
Beginning; I knew it'd
End this way."

Why didn't I listen?
I knew it from the start
I was just trying
Trying to fool my heart
Why didn't I listen?
I knew it from the start
I'm always trying
Trying to fool my heart

"What did I tell you?"
He asked me
"What did I say?
Big brother always
Knows the right way."

"What did I tell you?"
She asked me
"What did I say?
I promise I'll always
Be there to help
You find the way."

Why didn't I listen?
I knew it from the start
Why did I try fooling,
Fooling my heart?
Why didn't I listen?
My head says, "girl, be smart."
But I don't listen to logic
I listened to my heart

"What did I tell you?"
My mind asked me
"Did you hear what I said?
Maybe it wouldn't hurt
So bad if you listened
To your head."

Why didn't I listen?
I knew it from the start
Why did I try fooling,
Fooling my heart?
Why didn't I listen?
The world said, "girl, be smart."
But I don't listen to anyone
I listen to my heart

Friday, November 5, 2010

I Give.

Why is it that every single
Goddamn, mother fucking
Time I get happy and hopeful
Reality kicks the door down
And I see what I've been
Trying to avoid the whole time?

Don't be fucking stupid, Zia
You know your limits
Every single time
You get too happy
The world kicks you in the face
And tells you that you're wrong
Why don't you just accept that
You will never be good enough
For this world
Because no matter how hard you
Try, it's never enough
No matter how broken you get
It's not enough

Why do you even write anymore?
Why can't you play horn well enough?
Why does your voice sound like hell?
Why are you so ugly?
Why is your acne so bad?
Why the fuck can't you lose weight?
Why can't you be in cheerleading?
Why weren't you ever into sports?
Why can't people talk to you anymore?
Why are all of your friends leaving you?
Why have you always been alone?
Why the fuck are you so impulsive?

I'm done. Fuck this.