Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Another Picture

--- 3-22-11

You said, "Baby, I really love you
I'll do anything
I promise I'm forever yours."
But now you snatched it up
Took it and left me tears to sting
Now I'm crying behind closed doors

I miss the days when "I love you"
Meant something in your eyes
'Cuz leaving me's the opposite
But I guess that I really
Shouldn't be so surprised
They always leave me anyways

You promised to be
My knight in shining armor
And to save me from myself
Now we've come to a close
And I'm just another
Picture on your shelf

Every couple goes through
Phases they just can't escape
And I knew that this was ours
My friends have told me they've
Been through it, it's a twist of fate
And if we try we can go far

Am I just stupid for believing
In these fairytales?
My daydreams help to keep me strong
You told me we'd give it a week
And I believed your words
But now I know that I was wrong

You promised to be
My knight in shining armor
And to save me from myself
Now we've come to a close
And I'm just another
Picture on your shelf

You said, "Baby, I'm sorry
But you'll be okay
It won't hurt for very long."
I told that I'd give your
Hoodie back and I loved you
Then when the phone clicked, you were gone

Author's Note: This was by far the most difficult song for me to ever write. I began it during the day he broke up with me, as I felt the change in our relationship. I knew it would happen. Then the day after, I finished it. The melody is absolutely gorgeous, but it's so hard for me to sing. It's a painful song, but I truly love it.

Kisses In The Rain

--- 3-22-11
I feel a decade older
Can't sleep at night
You don't hold me tight
I feel a millenium colder
It's an icy storm
No one keeps me warm

Oh, only a little bit longer
If I close my eyes
This can disappear
Oh, I told you, you were stronger
All I do is cry
'Cuz I want you here
I guess you're moving on
When I blink, you'll be long gone

I won't forget the way you
Promised you loved me, too
The way your eyes look when you smile
And the way you kissed me, baby
The night when it kept raining
It was every girl's wildest dream
It meant the world and more to me

It's just another upset
Every other night
It's another fight
I feel the need to confess
When I'm not close to fine
You can make me shine

Oh, this is all my problem
Without you here
The sun's dark, my dear
Oh, I can't blame you at all
You were an angel
And now, I'm nothing

I won't forget the way you
Promised you loved me, too
The way your eyes look when you smile
And the way you kissed me, baby
Outside when it kept raining
It was every girl's wildest dream
It meant the world and more
It meant the world and more to me

Author's Note: I started this on 3-16-11 because I really felt the break-up coming. When, I had no clue. But I finished it the day after...

Whispered Wishes

--- 3-16-11

Whispered wishes
One more time
Missing the past
The happy
The laughs
Sneaking a smile
One more time
Across the room
Baby, I miss you
And one more
Whispered wish
Escapes my lips
As I stare out
My window I
nto the night sky

Please don't leave me
One more time
To the moonlight
Whispered wishes
Stolen kisses
Please don't leave me

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Mirror Mirror

--- 3-16-11

Mirror mirror on the wall
Whose heart just dropped?
Oh, she falls
One more time, one more time
Just another night of screaming
Into her reflection

Why'd you do this to yourself?
He's gonna leave you
Like the rest of them, baby
Couldn't you just stay quiet?
You keep speaking without censor
Meet the shadows, baby
They're your comfort
Through the heartbreak

Looking glass speak to me
Tell me what I'm missing
Though I see
White hot, white hot temper
One more night of crying
At her own mistakes

Why'd you do this to yourself?
He's gonna leave you
Like the rest of them, baby
Couldn't you just stay quiet?
You speak without censor
Meet yourself in the night
It's your comfort through
The heartbreak

Mirror mirror on the wall
I'm looking back
These tears ever fall
So cold, so cold
Just another night of screaming
At my reflection

Why'd you do this to yourself?
He's gonna leave you
Like the rest of them, baby
Couldn't you stay silent?
You keep speaking without censor
Meet these shadows
They're your comfort through
The heartbreak

And then the glass cracked

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Mass Media Message

--- 3-1-11

I could write a book
On you, if you'd let me
It'd be my favourite
Kind of fairytale

Chapter by chapter could
Be a different plot line
But there'd be the cheesy
Ending that this life entails

Let's put it this way

You are my everything
My whole life and more
Let's take an adventure
And see what the future
Has in store
For us, for us



I'd make us a movie
If you want one
The type with the
High school problems

Scene by scene could show
Our friendships changing
But in the end there are
Those who stayed loyal

Let's say it bluntly

You are my everything
My whole life and more
Let's take an adventure
Ad see what this world
Has in store
For us, for us

You are my everything
My whole heart and more
Let's take an adenture
And see what our life
Has in store
For us, for us

The High School Catwalk

--- 2-23-11

There's a knot
In my stomach
I'm wishing he didn't
Have control
There are some things
He just shouldn't ask me
It makes me sick, but
It doesn't show

Come here, everyone
He'll tell you a secret
Though I used duct tape
And super glue

Don't talk by
The high school catwalk
Unless you don't give a damn
About who knows your whole
Sex life or the problems
In your fam
They don't care how
Much you cry
So I suggest you
Run and hide
'Cuz these lying models
Give new meaning to high drama

There's a tear
In my eyes as
I apologize for the
Hundredth time
I didn't mean it
Guess I didn't learn
That in this school, they
Let rumors fly

Don't talk by
The high school catwalk
Unless you don't give a damn
About who knows your whole
Sex life or the problems
In your fam
They don't care how much
You cry, so I suggest
You run and hide
'Cuz these lying models
Give new meaning to
High drama

They can't see you
When you be you
Because society doesn't accept
Those who are different from the rest
I didn't expect them to accept me

Don't talk by the
High school catwalk
Unless you don't give a damn
About who knows your whole sex life
Or the problems in your fam
They don't care how much
You cry, so I suggest you
Run and hide
'Cuz these lying models
Give new meaning to
High drama

Don't talk by the
High school catwalk

Don't Fake Happy

--- 2-15-11

Can you dream with
Your eyes wide open?
Are you drifting or
Are you focused?
I believe the time is now

Can you breathe when
Your heart starts pounding?
Can you fly or
Are you grounded?
I believe in miracles

Let's watch the sunrise
Over the problems
We're having in this time
It's time to realize that
We are the change that
We want in our lives
'Cuz we gotta keep trying
To live like we're dying
Nothing can be simple
In the end
Stop faking the smiles
'Cuz happy isn't something
To pretend

Did you listen when
They were screaming?
Are their words
Making you stop dreaming?
I believe it's time to breathe

When did we fall
In love with lying?
How does make-up
Conceal our crying?
I believe in honesty

Let's watch the sunrise
Over the darkness
That's shading our eyes
It's time to realize
That if we succeed isn't
Their path to decide
'Cuz if we believe the choice
To ignore all the voices
Telling us how to live
Then we can disregard
How much they choose to give

Can you dream with
Your eyes wide open?
Are you drifting or
Are you focused?
When did we fall in
Love with lying?
How does make-up
Conceal our crying?
I believe in miracles

Let's watch the sunrise
Over the problems
We're having in this time
It's time to realize that
We are the change that
We want in our lives
'Cuz we gotta keep trying
To live like we're dying
Nothing's simple in the end
Stop faking the smiles
Happy's not something to pretend

Let's watch the sunrise
Over the darkness that's
Shading our eyes
It's time to realize
That whether we succeed
Isn't their path to decide
'Cuz if we believe the choice
To ignore all the voices
Telling us how to live
Then we can disregard
How much they choose to give

Ready To Let You In

---- 1-25-11

I'm trying to work this out
But there's a part of me
Not getting by
What should I try to do?
I love you, but this
Stress is getting me

I don't wanna let you go
This love is my favourite thing to know

Baby, I'd fight with you forever
If it meant being in your arms
I'd let you do whatever
If you tried to keep me warm
'Cuz the day you wanna leave
Is the day I go insane
You'd never be the problem
I'd only have myself to blame

I don't wanna have to break
Away from you when I'm
A little too close
I can't help who I am
I'm selfish and I want you
Whenever I can have your time

What do I have to do
To prove that I can
Really learn to trust?
I know it's hard for me
But I can say that I'm
Ready to let you in

What do you say?
Can you promise me you'll stay?

Because I'd fight with you forever
If it meant being in your arms
I'd let you do whatever
If you tried to keep me warm
'Cuz the day you wanna leave
Is the day I go insane
You'd never be the problem
I'd only have myself to blame...

Lost In Time

---- 1-24-11

What's a road
If you can't see
Those white lines?
Where would we
Be if we lost
The stop signs?
It would be a pile-up
Everybody would get stuck
Nothing to guide us
To our destiny

What's a night
If you can't see
The stars shine?
Where would we
Be if we were
All confined?
We'd lose a sense of mind
And never get lost in time
Nothing bright for everyone
To see

So why don't we
Fix what's missing
And forget the past?
Erase the dumb fights
Ad focus on the laughs
Stop all the crying
Wipe away the tears
Learn how to trust
Overcome our fears

What's a song
If you can't
Hear the music?
Would we live
Or would we
Really lose it?
It's what we need to survive
Something between you and I
What we need to make it
Through the pain

So why don't we
Fix what's missing
And forget the past?
Erase the dumb fights and
Focus on the laughs
Stop all the crying
Wipe away the tears
Learn how to trust
Overcome our fears

Fall harder in love
Than ever before
Walk hand in hand
Through the future's door
Lose ourselves in a
Fantasy
Always know that it's
You and me

What's a night
If you can't see
The stars shine?
What would you
Do if you weren't
Ever mine?

Why don't we
Fix what's missing
And forget the past?
Erase the dumb fights and
Focus on the laughs
Stop all the crying
Wipe away the tears
Learn how to trust
Overcome our fears

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Infuriating

Maybe you won't change
But maybe I can
I don't want this stress
Or to be played
I'm sick of your mind games
I'm sick of this "friendship"
I sick of this irritating
Complicating
Infuriating
Relationship
That you seem so dead-set
On saving