Thursday, October 21, 2010

Say Good-bye

What happened, baby?
When did I disappear?
It's like I'm invisible
To you and all around you
What happened, baby?
Since when do I not exist?
What happened, baby?
Oh...

I miss the way we were
When you wouldn't even
Glance at her
And we were inseperable
Now it's like it never happened
I can't keep doing this
Can't I jut get a good-bye kiss?
'Cuz if you're leaving me
At least say good-bye

What happened, baby?
When did you forget that I'm alive?
It's like I'm living a nightmare and
I want a daydream
What happened, baby?
Since when am I the lesser girl?
What happened, baby?
Oh...

I miss the way we were
When you wouldn't even
Glance at her
And we were inseperable
Now it's like it never happened
I can't keep doing this
Can I at least get a good-bye kiss?
'Cuz if you're leaving me
At least say good-bye

When did we lose it?
What did I do?
Why don't you miss me
Like I miss you?

What was the problem?
What did I do?
Why don't I matter?
What did I do?

I miss the way we were
When you wouldn't even
Glance at her
And we were so close
Now it's like it never happened
I can't keep doing this
Can I at least get a good-bye kiss?
'Cuz if you're leaving me
And I know you're leaving me
When you leave me
At least say good-bye

4 comments:

  1. Zia, this apology is also very overdue, although not nearly as overdue as the apology note that I wrote before this. I know that this isn't really the place to write this, but I have no other means of communicating with you, and this needs to be said.

    I've changed a /lot/ lately, and I've been doing some soul searching. Seems to be the only thing I've been doing recently. And I now realize that I wasn't the greatest friend to you. Hurting Kathy the way that I did then expecting you to side with me and not even talk to her was completely a bogus idea and someone should seriously go back in time and slap me in the face. I wasn't there for you in the ways I should have been. I was always a little too self-centered, a little too needy, a little too unconcerned with the things that you had to say. I was wrong. And I didn't realize that until tonight. So I'm sorry. I shouldn't have expected you to be there for me after everything I did to you and the people you care about. I should have been there for you. You and Kathy should have been my first priorities, considering that you were the ones I called "best friends". Honestly, I can't imagine why you guys stayed around me for as long as you did. And I don't blame you anymore. I really don't. You deserve all the happiness in the world, girl. That's one thing that hasn't changed. You've always been wonderful. You've always been more deserving than I have. Thank you for being there for me even when I was unbearable. I don't blame you for leaving me anymore. I would've left me too.

    In short, thank you for being there for me, and I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you as I should have been.

    P.S. We never officially got a divorce. We should do that some time.

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  2. I guess I should be saying thank you. I mean, this means a lot to me. I never thought I'd hear you say it. So... thanks.

    I'm sorry for just kind of dropping off the face of the earth. It was rather un-classy of me, and if I had wanted to leave, I should have been more kind and have given you a reason instead of immaturely ignoring your calls and such. So I guess there's blame to share.

    So. Where do we go from here?

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  3. Well, for one, you could unblock me from facebook so I can grovel at your feet and the ground you walk on in general.

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  4. Oops, scratch that last post. I found out how to unblock. Damned technology being all confusing and such. I'm getting too old for the internet

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