Rising Nightmare

Author's Note: This is the hardest one I've had to write to date. It makes me want to cry every time I sing it. But if you want to hear it, feel free to let me know. I don't believe I dated this one, either. It was sometime in March after I broke up with him.

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Do you even feel ashamed
Of how you handled you and me?
I've only got myself to blame
For this shattered heart and broken dreams

You silently watched me cry
From those big brown eyes you held so dear
Didn't give one damn "goodbye"
Or wipe away a single tear

I may have been the one to leave
But that doesn't mean I'm not
Screaming in the night
This mask I wear is infallible
So you'll believe that I'm alright
The vengeful side you never see
Hopes it hurts to look at me
Maybe then you'll feel the way I feel
'Cuz this is my nightmare coming real

I hope you're doing well
Bet you've already moved on
You put me through a living hell
When you said you wanted me gone

Just let me walk away
Didn't even try to hold me back
Or ask me if I'd stay
You allowed everything to crack
Into pieces

I may have been the one to leave
But that doesn't mean I'm not
Screaming in the night
This mask I wear is infallible
So you'll believe that I'm alright
The vengeful side you never see
Hopes it hurts to look at me
Maybe then you'll feel the way I feel
'Cuz I swear, this is my nightmare coming real

Maybe I'm a liar
If I tell you I'm okay
Don't tell me you miss me
I'm not gonna listen
Or ever believe you again!

I should've seen this coming
I've been through this before
Why did you have to do this?
Why don't you love me anymore?

I may have been the one to leave
But that doesn't mean I'm not
Screaming in the night
The act I have is infallible
So you'll believe that I'm alright
The vengeful side you never see
Hopes it hurts to look at me
Maybe then you'll feel the way I feel
'Cuz this is my nightmare coming real
You created my nightmare